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Post by Admin on Nov 7, 2021 13:35:08 GMT
As you sit in your home, or apartment, wherever you live, do you ever feel like you're being watched? Like someone has placed secret spy cams in your place? Like while gone, or before moved in, someone placed cameras in your place and your in some reality TV show? With me, what a gross boring pathetic show it would be. I say 'gross', cause when home alone I usually walk around totally naked, I mean who needs clothing if no ones around or looking? Unless as I just wrote, unless there are spy cams placed in place that I don't know about.
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Post by Admin on Nov 8, 2021 19:30:18 GMT
When you realize only you can dig your way out of anything
I mean think about it, if sick, who really cares?
If fall down in your home, and single, who really cares?
If have a bad day and make many mistakes, who really cares?
Outside of say parent sibling type relationship, no one really cares.
People only may care if your blunder effects them in some way, but they only care about their 'course' being effected by your blunder, not you yourself.
So that being said, when in a hole, only you can dig yourself out, climb your way out, that is if 'self' matters to self.
So start climbing.
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Post by Admin on Nov 9, 2021 9:49:46 GMT
I don't fit in well on social media cause I don't know what it's like to be one thing all of the time
Social media is about 'niches' and 'clicks', you have to fit perfectly into some narrow definition others have of you, or you of them, in order to do well on social media.
You either have to be on the left or right, you have to either identify with black or white, you must be totally gay or totally straight.
You must either like rap, or only country and so forth.
I can't pretend to be any of the above all of the time.
But in reality most aren't, but fake like they are in order to fit in.
To be true to self, than I have to be 'all I can be' and all that is inside of me which is a lot based on living, honest living, learning and listening to others now and back when.
Totally think like a male or totally think like a female...nope.
But I do totally think like a 'being' whom is aware and conscious of being physically alive for a while.
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Post by Admin on Nov 15, 2021 15:22:27 GMT
I think cell phone companies are the ones that generate 'spam call', and then try to offer you 'spam call block' Lately phone getting hammered with spam calls, then noticed on cell phone website they offer spam call block, and for a fee I'm sure, seems suspicious to me, since there's already laws on the books against spam calls. www.fcc.gov/consumers/guides/stop-unwanted-robocalls-and-texts Here's the link, and the edict or law, allows phone companies to block these calls from reaching your phone, so that fact they they do not, tells me they, phone companies, would rather allow the calls to make it to your phone, and then offer you, the sucker, more money to stop those calls, which according to the law, the phone companies should be doing anyways. What a sham, the phone companies that is, or at least the one I have.
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Post by Admin on Dec 2, 2021 2:31:54 GMT
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Post by Admin on Dec 12, 2021 15:12:45 GMT
Not sure why all these former mafia guys, now that older, all looked upon as hero's, when all they did when in their prime was hurt others and commit crimes, and kill people, how is that being a hero?
When 'Blacks' do the same, regardless of age, they're in prison and considered bad people by society.
Seems one set of criminals are romanticized about, the other set of criminals demonized as being subhuman, which spills over into non criminal black folks as well.
None of these older mafia guys ever show repentance or sorrow over any of the lives they took of others, no remorse, they only seem to be remorseful that they had to make deals with the Government, give up others, to reduce their own sentences.
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Post by Admin on Dec 20, 2021 16:47:00 GMT
Man beats up like 4 guys who were attacking him and his wife or girlfriend www.bitchute.com/video/NwNCeiWx9mII/ If don't like seeing arrogant immigrant thugs get beat up, than do not watch.
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Post by Admin on Dec 26, 2021 11:52:20 GMT
Food for thought
Talk about side thoughts.
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Post by Admin on Jan 2, 2022 8:34:43 GMT
Feeling a bit grey and bland so far this year
Ye, it's 2022, but as of now, I don't know, I don't feel happy or sad, just 'here'.
I just feel like I'm here, and that's it.
I don't feel 'great', and that's the problem, I just don't feel great or fantastic, I simply feel alive and 'here'.
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Post by Admin on Jan 2, 2022 8:41:37 GMT
Prosperity just always seems to escape me, basically my whole life.
It's like I just can't find prosperity, not in my social life (non existent), not fiscally, not in no way.
I just get by, and that's it, but that's not enough when you get older, I mean how are those of us living check to check, basically, going to survive into our older age? We're not, we'll end up homeless or committing suicide, or falling ill and not being able to pay for it and so dying a miserable death. I shouldn't think like that and normally don't.
So many billions of dollars floating around out there in banks, non of it seems to land, though, where it should.
Shysters seem to hoard and take it all, it just never seems to occur to those with billions in their account how much just 20,000 could help change a life, or many, instead they buy whatever with it, and hoard the rest, and that's their right, but then expect low level citizens to go fight their battles for them in war, pick up their trash ect.
I don't know what type of year this is going to be, I just feel like standing still now, tired of effort being met with nothing.
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Post by Admin on Jan 18, 2022 20:37:50 GMT
Totally out of it today, drank to much yesterday. I was supposed to start the process of seeing if I qualify for a house, was suppose to finish book I've been trying to write, suppose to do a lot, but instead just in a dumb stupor do to drinking yesterday. Oh well, days not over yet, I can still get a few things done.
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Post by Admin on Jan 25, 2022 22:12:08 GMT
I think I'll try filing my own taxes this year using maybe Turbo tax, they seem pretty legit. turbotax.intuit.com/ I should just do them now instead of always putting stuff off.
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Post by Admin on Jan 26, 2022 0:25:27 GMT
I think I'll try filing my own taxes this year using maybe Turbo tax, they seem pretty legit. turbotax.intuit.com/ I should just do them now instead of always putting stuff off. According to these reviews, it's not free like in the past.. turbotax.intuit.com/personal-taxes/online/deluxe.jsp#reviews With Biden/Harris admin in power, and all the money they've spent, nothings free on the back end anymore.
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Post by Admin on Jan 31, 2022 15:03:18 GMT
I don't think I'll ever ever know the difference between 'to' and 'too'
'Come to me' or 'Come too me'
'I to, am happy' or 'I too, am happy'
'To bad you're not me' or 'Too bad you're not me'.
I'll never figure out when to use which one of those words.
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Post by Admin on Feb 7, 2022 16:45:12 GMT
I feel like I've lost something
I wake up this morning feeling like I've lost something, not something physical, but just as if I've lost something out of my life, but can't put my hand on it, hypothetically speaking.
I haven't drank in about 2 weeks, outside of maybe 1.5 beers, but that's been over a week ago.
Sobering up is just a weird phase in and of itself, it's like a old reality begins to fade while a new one emerges.
A physical reality and a mental one.
And when sober you have no excuses for your thoughts.
And it's odd, even though sober as of late, I sometimes wake up as if I should have that after drinking effect.
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Sometimes just not sure who are what I am anymore or what I'm suppose to be anymore other than just alive, just a creature that eats, in order to sustain the basics of life, like a tree.
Seems about the only thing I can really do right anymore is eat, that's an easy task...hard to mess that up.
In fairness to myself though, it's not that I'm doing anything wrong, it's just seems unable to prosper.
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