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Post by Admin on Apr 21, 2024 5:29:23 GMT
Really though, I just wish I could win the lottery, then don't have to worry about 'dreams', or goals, cause you just instantly buy everything and save years of time trying to get it.
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Post by Admin on May 27, 2024 4:02:04 GMT
I feel like I'm living in a dream right now...ye, I'm still alive, but things have changed so much over past 5 months, and especially past few weeks, it doesn't even feel like it's my life anymore.
I feel more like an observer within my own body.
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Post by Admin on Jun 11, 2024 14:07:09 GMT
I spent 500 dollars on a printer and have only used it once...wow.
I just wanted a big powerful printer.
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Post by Admin on Jun 14, 2024 19:27:08 GMT
As soon as I got home, all my energy just like left me..hmm
It's like when I get home, I just stop wanting to do anything.
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Post by Admin on Jun 19, 2024 1:31:48 GMT
I'm cursed in the sense in that it seems the only people who notice me, are those who can't help change my life for the better.
Success = getting noticed and responded to by those who can actually help you change your life for the better, and who want to.
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Post by Admin on Jun 20, 2024 2:05:20 GMT
I've totally given up on social media, in no way shape or form does social media sites interest me anymore.
It's just deadening to me, and I wasted so many years, hours, actually thinking what I posted on line matters...ye right, what a hoax.
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Post by Admin on Jun 20, 2024 2:06:24 GMT
Now, I'm just the opposite...if can't talk to me on the phone, or meet in person, I don't want nothing really to do with you.
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Post by Admin on Jun 23, 2024 6:00:59 GMT
Brand new 'forum blog', just testing right now, setting things up, which will take weeks, months even, but the writing will come, regardless... I have many different blog forums, I have some even older than this one. But still, 7 years of consistent writing and typing and expression of ideas is still quite the run. |
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Post by Admin on Jun 23, 2024 6:04:33 GMT
Did things turn out the way I thought they would? Not just on here, but in real life?
I doubt it.
I think for many years, I spent much of my home time, or off time, when not working, sheltering in my other place, and creating my own little fantasy realms or sanctuaries. That's where all the drunk fueled art and self portraits come from.
In the end, I guess I was hoping would have won the lottery, and really could create and escape into my own realm behind palace walls....not the case...dern.
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Post by Admin on Jun 23, 2024 6:09:16 GMT
Maybe one day I'll share these blogs, these writings, my writings, to the world, or at least the right world, or person or people, who'll actually do something with them.
As it is, I'm taking a film course right now, and usually arts and entertainment types, mainly writers, love stuff like this...but can never find. Google hides sites like this now.
Even YT views and follows have gone way down.
In the past you could amass followers on YT, FB and or twitter, like nothing, but now, if an unknown, it's virtually impossible to get followers the old fashion organic way...now if want followers have to cheat, hire or pay for campaign, and whatever.
I'm to old for that crap anymore...meaningless to me now...I prefer talking to people in real life.
Social media has destroyed being social, it has turned this younger generation into emotional monsters.
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Post by Admin on Jul 2, 2024 21:04:28 GMT
Don't ever settle on a bad relationship, cause you'll just be wasting your time and draining yourself emotionally = bad health
And when I say relationship, I don't just mean a romantic one, I mean any type of relationship you have with another.
Teacher/student
friend/friend
Neighbor/Neighbor
Etc and whatever and on and on...if it's not working, move on, regardless of who's at fault.
No one even has to be at fault, it's just not every personality types match up.
Bad relationships just drain you, you spend all your time worrying about appeasing the other person who can make you an emotional slave to their emotional behavior, knowingly or unknowingly.
Anyways, a lot of productive hours left in this day, so let me move onto the next task.
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Post by Admin on Jul 12, 2024 10:06:24 GMT
One day, I've gotta pull up blog posts from years ago, and then see what was going on in the news when the post was posted.
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Post by Admin on Jul 12, 2024 10:08:05 GMT
Brand new 'forum blog', just testing right now, setting things up, which will take weeks, months even, but the writing will come, regardless... As you can see, this forum blog relatively new compared to another one I have. This blog forum was started in 2017, which, wow, is already 7 years ago...wow. |
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Post by Admin on Jul 14, 2024 2:30:50 GMT
Assassination attempt on Trump, tonight, if haven't already heard
They almost took Trump out tonight...wow...I say 'they' cause of course I'm sure there were others behind the lone gunman....we shall see.
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Post by Admin on Jul 27, 2024 14:04:08 GMT
This is how others see me as
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