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Post by Admin on Dec 25, 2018 2:17:19 GMT
Xmas, really, what does that mean anymore?OK, where's my manager, I didn't ask to be dressed up like this when I came into the studio, this is very not me, at least not now. Would you please take the photo already and take this silly hat off of me. Oh, hello, and Merry Xmas, I guess. Me, no gifts and none given. Dinner tomorrow, umm half a burrito, maybe some scrambled eggs, salad maybe, and fruit. I will simply spend tomorrow dreading the day after it when have to get back to a ugly reality that just won't go away, no matter what, it's always there. Must go back and face the same monsters...just so tired of it, but nothing I can do about it. I just want things to stay still and remain the same, why can't they do that? Companies are cruel and totally don't care about your own personal goals and dreams. Companies are no longer my 'god', but must go to the temple of 'work' every day, in order to be fed. Anyways, all that aside, I'll be alone tomorrow, as will other characters, moods and spirits in this vast Hall. So visit us and read our stories if you'd like, every character has a story, some you can relate to, others you cannot. And Merry Xmas I suppose (some probably think for me to say that is blaphmy? blasphemy. (yes, I spelled it right after only 2 tries) But it's OK for a blonde woman to dress up in bikini on a calender, calendor, calendar (3 tries) dressed as Santa's Elf? But if I and or others characters on here want to look colorful, it's wrong? why? Anyways, Merry Xmas, my circumstances really suck right now, but must maintain moral for self and...and? Who else must I maintain my moral for?...that I don't know, Oh ye, my job, cause if I don't show up to work do to depression or giving up on life, they'll get mad. Oh I just want to cry, but no one would no, hear, or care.
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Post by Admin on Dec 28, 2018 13:09:03 GMT
I found this video to be really revealing, about who controls the image of YBM's in America as projected through Rap or Hip-Hop.
According to this video it's Jewish male Executives who have forged the modern image of Blacks, through propigating certain images and stereotypes through Rap...I mean hear it from the artists themselves in video (and many other videos, it's like now the truth comes out when most find themselves on tail end of career without a dime)
And odd how, lets say, how your every day 'white' observer of society, thinks all the vileness that has come to be known as most modern rap is just how 'black folk are', and have no idea this image was engineered by Jewish Executives to help sell music.
Well, no one controls my image, and is probably why I have little to nothing.
But, that being said, is why so many black males are mentally lost, in that this idea that to be black, one must represent what one sees in music videos, leaves more and more scratching their head and saying 'why can't I just be me?.
But sadly, the powers that be have so much power, influence, and control the media that just because a few individuals become self enlightened doesn't mean anything will change.
I mean if some rich, wealthy, Jewish male came to me right now, and asked me to dance on stage while wearing a dress, who's to say I wouldn't do it?
But once I 'got mine' would I get out, or be lured by the money to continue?
(Sadly I'll never be given that option in that like most, I have zero commercial value) bummer
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Post by Admin on Dec 30, 2018 2:44:23 GMT
'Black' is such a generic term 'Black' is such a generic term which tends to lump anyone who isn't white or Asian into one gigantic generic pool of nothingness. Well, I'm not nothing, I'm something, at least while alive. It's as if I'm a living ghost, which insecure types run from, I'm here, there, everywhere, Oh what a movie that would make. I'm I one or many?, I mean after all who could possible write this much?, express so many varying view points about everything. Mysteries are what make life interesting after one has departed, puzzles to be solved by future online archeologist...or however spelled. All I know is not all so called 'black folks' are the same, not mentally or DNA. Not all those deemed 'B' have thick rough hands, or thick feet, designed to walk over thorns when in Africa....many so called African slaves, had DNA mixed with other peoples of the Earth, and thus are very plural. I'm not really making sense right now, and that's OK, just trying to blow off some energy. Being unique, means you're more times than not always going to be very alienated from everything.
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Post by Admin on Jan 1, 2019 12:42:11 GMT
I use to think it would be fun to be 'W'
I use to think it would be fun to be 'W', probably cause I was raised as a minority among 'W's, and when younger, K12, of course and naturally all you want to do is fit in, and when the majority around you are 'W', than that's what you want to be, just simply to fit in.
But as one ages, one begins to observe and notice much, and that is most 'W's don't live the story book life TV makes it out to be, many do, but a lot do not.
And after watching the 'Justice' channel on TV, you also see that many 'W's are victimized by own family members or friends, or stalkers ect, for simply being to attractive.
I mean being attractive is a good thing, as long as attractive within a loving, sensible home or environment, but if attractive and among wolves, well.
And more times than not, the average person is attractive among wolves.
And today I notice many 'W's, (at least younger ones) out of desperation, sell or trade their attractiveness for opiods, drugs, this or that, especially in smaller rural towns which use to be safe from all of that until the Cartels begin piping drugs in, and do to economic decline. People tend to use whatever they have for leverage and if being attractive gives one leverage who doesn't use that as a tool or weapon.
i also notice the window for being attractive can be smaller for 'W's in that the sun starts taking a toll early on.
I mean if W, and don't take care of skin, buy the time one is 30-35, skin can become withered looking or very dry, all that sun tanning stuff is a no no.
Also observe, if W, and don't have act together, life can be just as hard as it is for others, maybe even worse in that when W and young have so much expectation for self, and when don't live up to that depression can set in. (just look at the stats)
Being W is fun though, if stay within the 'route' per say, follow the American dream, per say, get good grades, go to college, stay out of trouble, and then can ride that privilidge train anywhere, but if depart from that narrow path, can easily get chewed up by life like everyone else.
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Post by Admin on Jan 6, 2019 1:26:14 GMT
Why I despise black T-girls or T girl looksWhy I despise B T girls or T girl looks. If I already can't stand the exaggerated clownish, yes clownish looks of black females who over do it on make up and nails and all the rest, what makes a B male think that if they mimic the same, that some how they can do it better? Ugly and wacky is ugly and wacky, regardless of what gender does it. Males, particularly B males, who think the only way they can be attractive or cute is to mimic the odd exaggerated styles of urban females really does just turn me and others off, big time. I mean if I can't stand long nails on females, that means I hate them extra when a male does it. Gross is gross, period. Instead I prefer males who see beauty in being male, not female. So few will get or understand that in that most are dense and only think in terms of extremes, all of this or all of that. Sorry, but B females and or she males just aren't or weren't meant to dress up European style, with exaggerated make up and nails and long demonic toe nails. To me, being attractive is simply finding ones natural 'tone' and going with that flow. So few readers will get that, instead most who read this will act or react totally 'human'. If you're not a woman, than don't try to be one, unless natural genes compliment transition. (at least that's how I see it)
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Post by Admin on Jan 6, 2019 1:37:53 GMT
Younger W males are more attractive in that they understand they have 99 degrees between 1 and 100, in terms of 'tone'.
Black males, on the other hand tend to be 'dense' or more dense, when it comes to identity in that they only figure have to be 100% masculine or 100% fem...and nothing in between.
Often times the beauty and mystery comes in the in between, not the extremes
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Post by Admin on Jan 6, 2019 2:00:13 GMT
For example, and what I find acceptable For example, the above male species, although 'male' the 'look' fits them in that they're not forcing un natural look or flow, but rather going with natures own flow of lines, fitness and curves. They're not trying to be 'female' rather simply exploring own range of male, like the ancients did. This will make so few sense to majority of readers who are trained to think only in extremes, but to the few, they will get it.
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Post by Admin on Jan 6, 2019 14:51:06 GMT
Hi and Hello!Hi and Hello everyone!, or the very few. I don't promote this thread anymore, I mean why should I? I think people tend to find what they want on their own, and then it means more. Sure, I could leave links with twitter, this that, but why. Anyways, I kind of like the above image of 'self', I cheer myself up at times be recreating me own image in the way I wish I could be all the time, the way I am on the inside. I like being bright and cheery, regardless of the worlds efforts to make you dark and gloomy. Especially as a male of color, everyone expects you to be a menace, dark and dangerous. Not I, said the fun loving nerdy sexy geek. If were a millionaire, and had mansion, I'd prounce around in Mansion, marble floors, as above, 90% of the time, in seclusion and privacy, not bugging no one. Just me, my feet, legs, imagination and marble floors. Yes, I'd be happy within Mansion, maybe a few cats, a dog, a few goats (for humor)(Goats are so funny). Fish, and more. I'd just be free to be me outside of other peoples horrible vision of what they need me to be to feel 'correct'. And this applies to many others, not just me, myself and I. Many others just want to be free as well, to be themselves, to laugh, smile, and be the beautiful self they are on the inside, regardless of gender, age, color, ethnicity and more. Flesh so gets in the way of freedom at times. This, and a few other blog forums me, myself and I dwell on, are some of the few places where M beauty can be displayed through art without 'sleaze' factor. It really grosses me out how males who want to display softer sides of self, are always led to 'P' images, and exploited. Not here, here if want to look and feel beautiful in your own kind of way, no exploitation, just art. Abstract art for the thinking class, the more advanced class, which is becoming more and more rare by the day. And may request this be brought up in podcast, cause it's an issue that really does bug me greatly. Anyways, time to get on with the day. And in mind, will pretend I am actually in Mansion, walking barefoot on marble floors, and opening front door to view vast meadow, green grass and mountains in the background.
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Post by Admin on Jan 6, 2019 18:05:19 GMT
Hi and Hello!Hi and Hello everyone!, or the very few. I don't promote this thread anymore, I mean why should I? I think people tend to find what they want on their own, and then it means more. Sure, I could leave links with twitter, this that, but why. Anyways, I kind of like the above image of 'self', I cheer myself up at times be recreating me own image in the way I wish I could be all the time, the way I am on the inside. I like being bright and cheery, regardless of the worlds efforts to make you dark and gloomy. Especially as a male of color, everyone expects you to be a menace, dark and dangerous. Not I, said the fun loving nerdy sexy geek. If were a millionaire, and had mansion, I'd prounce around in Mansion, marble floors, as above, 90% of the time, in seclusion and privacy, not bugging no one. Just me, my feet, legs, imagination and marble floors. Yes, I'd be happy within Mansion, maybe a few cats, a dog, a few goats (for humor)(Goats are so funny). Fish, and more. I'd just be free to be me outside of other peoples horrible vision of what they need me to be to feel 'correct'. And this applies to many others, not just me, myself and I. Many others just want to be free as well, to be themselves, to laugh, smile, and be the beautiful self they are on the inside, regardless of gender, age, color, ethnicity and more. Flesh so gets in the way of freedom at times. This, and a few other blog forums me, myself and I dwell on, are some of the few places where M beauty can be displayed through art without 'sleaze' factor. It really grosses me out how males who want to display softer sides of self, are always led to 'P' images, and exploited. Not here, here if want to look and feel beautiful in your own kind of way, no exploitation, just art. Abstract art for the thinking class, the more advanced class, which is becoming more and more rare by the day. And may request this be brought up in podcast, cause it's an issue that really does bug me greatly. Anyways, time to get on with the day. And in mind, will pretend I am actually in Mansion, walking barefoot on marble floors, and opening front door to view vast meadow, green grass and mountains in the background. You're kind of 'cute', in that you're simply being yourself. I don't like She males or Cross dressers or any of that crap, what I appreciate about people is when they simply explore own range of beauty, which to me has zero to do with cross gender identity. I mean who says males can't be 'cute'?, just like who says females can't be 'rough'? It's all about finding own personal style, I suppose. Males who are obscessed with being female, kind of gross me out actually, how they mimic all the exagerated make up styles and all. I just like people who have natural beauty, be it they male or female, or near such. And thank you for showing a softer side of male, that does not exploit ones dignity, like you see everywhere else. I mean this idea that just because one wants to look and feel beautiful to self means that one then sells dignity to whomever, mystifies me. Humans so think in extremes, 'If you're beautiful or graceful than you must be a ____'.....why? In Heaven (if heaven exists) things, beings, former humans, will be beautiful, so does that mean gigantic orgy will follow? Wake up people.
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Post by Admin on Jan 6, 2019 18:10:59 GMT
Humans have way more brain matter than insects, yet so many people chose to only use the insect side or portion of their brains.
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Post by Admin on Jan 8, 2019 1:10:02 GMT
Life sucks at times people, not because of 'Life' or being alive, but rather because of the evil contained inside of others
Life at times sucks people, not life itself, which is always wonderful, for instance, if a butterfly life is wonderful , sweet necture (Oh why did I even try to spell that word)...but say you're a butterfly, just flying around sipping sweet nectuar or nectaure or whatever...and then suddenly end up in ugly spider web where demonic spider wraps up, bites and drains of life force.
Well that's humans for you.
Life, being alive, is wonderful, it's humans, human systems of Government, and the evil contained within, that drains us.
You've never heard this anywhere before, although I'm sure some will steal.
When people commit suicide, it's not because they really want to die, rather it's because they want to live.
So few will get that.
Life, being alive, is wonderful, until man makes it bad.
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Post by Admin on Jan 8, 2019 1:12:08 GMT
Christian are you, have all the answers?
Or Muslim are you, have all the answers, nothing more than owned clones.
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Post by Admin on Jan 8, 2019 1:13:00 GMT
Christian are you, have all the answers? Or Muslim are you, have all the answers, nothing more than owned clones. But there is a certain peace that comes in being a clone, in that don't have to think.
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Post by Admin on Jan 8, 2019 1:18:05 GMT
Some of us play with 'man' the way a cat plays with a mouse.
100% predictable
Full of lies to force narrate own believe system, and more.
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Post by Admin on Jan 8, 2019 1:21:32 GMT
Odd spirits guide this world, guide the activity within, not 'you'...let me stop before I reveal to much.
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