Mistakes I make or made

Biggest mistake I've ever made in my life, as far as I'm concerned, is moving to the current location I now reside at, and or staying here for as long as I have.

I'll get more into that later as it will probably be a re-occurring theme.

I'm here where I'm at because of me...I led myself here, down this lonely empty road, and only I can steer myself out of it.

Sometimes though, things happen around you, like a bridge can collapse, ect, no fault of your own.

I feel I was misled in life, that and I haven't been able to form a friend group since leaving high school, and maybe for a while while in Job corps...but outside of 'institutions, I haven't been able to for a frienship core...and that's probably why i flounder so much.

You need a solid circle of people, or even one, around you, you can't do stuff alone, you need contacts, positive people, happy people, and people who dream big, around you to have a quality social life.

Everything that's wrong about my life, only I can fix, from current community I live in, which I don't like, to job, ect...only I can change it, and if want to change it, I must be sober, cause alcohol gives you an excuse not to change, cause when drunk, you just don't care.

But I do care and want change, soon, for my own sake.
I've got to 'man up', goes the term, and set a new course for myself if life is to still have meaning for me down the road.
And that may mean me actually moving away from where I stay now, which is one of the scariest moves anyone can me, especially when single.

I really do need to move back to a rural area, where there are no, or very few _______ people, where things are safer and much slower.

When in high school, I should of hung out with the nerdy geeky types.