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Post by Admin on Oct 28, 2024 18:54:48 GMT
I've wasted so many hours over the years actually thinking others gave a dm about anything I had to say, on social media, in podcasts, blogs.
What a waste of time.
And maybe some did, but then behind the scene hacks at google, etc, shrink your views and exposure...jerk offs.
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Post by Admin on Oct 30, 2024 5:23:09 GMT
I hate that feeling of having an appointment the next day...I hate that feeling of already having to be somewhere.
Some people love to be on a schedule, I despise it.
Probably why I'm not more successful, cause I despise having to be anywhere at a scheduled time.
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Post by Admin on Nov 11, 2024 5:59:59 GMT
Now that I have all this energy, again, since leaving booze behind, I find myself not wanting tomorrow to come or arrive. Yes, it's past midnight and technically already tomorrow, but as I always state, my 'tomorrow' doesn't begin until I lay down, go to bed, fall asleep, and then wake up in the morning. So to me, if I stay up until 3 am, than it's still the same day, OK. Either way, i don't want tomorrow to arrive, I have no use for tomorrow to be honest with you. I'm safe now, in this moment and time, but tomorrow, who knows.  |
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Post by Admin on Nov 21, 2024 4:41:46 GMT
Just got back from a late-night bike ride Just got back from a late night bike ride. I no longer have a treadmill, so when I get the urge for some cardio workout, I have to go outside. I'm dealing with a lot of disappointment right now, smashed dreams.I spent the last 10 months really hoping for a different outcome, to no avail, I'm still mortal, still have to find work, still have to pay rent, it's like loosing your super powers. Hard to explain, but begging for a job, filling out applications, etc, it's demeaning at this stage of my life and is why I've got 'One more silver dollar' (Midnight hour, Almond Brothers) Trying to create a online subscription based service, and that's my last shot, dumped my last bit of saving into it...cause it's the only way I'll ever be able to generate enough money to be free again, is through a subscription based service, otherwise I'm going to be a labor slave for the rest of my healthy life, then after that I'll be homeless. Oh well, no need in depressing myself more than I already feel. Health is OK, I'm pretty fit for my age, would be better if just never started drinking years ago, which is a on again off again struggle. But when go to the dock, I always get a near perfect bill of health. Drinking makes me feel crummy now, but at time I drink beer and get drunk to shield me from my own reality. Anyways, time to take care of a few more tasks.
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