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Post by Admin on Mar 1, 2022 7:43:48 GMT
I'm in pain right now, and not worried about Putin or Russia or Ukraine.
I may go to the dern Doctor tomorrow, darn it, just to be charged a bunch of money for what I already know I need, some penicillin (can't believe I spelled that correctly on first try).
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Post by Admin on Mar 29, 2022 22:29:36 GMT
Highway feet
Highway feet.
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Post by Admin on Apr 2, 2022 22:48:55 GMT
Would a new car have made a difference on a day like today? Almost got a new Dodge Charger last week, for many reasons, one is was hoping a new car would encourage me to just get out there more. Out and about. One problem I have is at my age, one tends to become more of a home body, but the second problem is is that I haven't achieved all I know I can, and won't, if always at home all of the time. I can't achieve much if sitting at home all of the time, and trying to achieve stuff online, social media, whatever, has been the biggest waste of my time over the last 10 years, nothing has come from any of my online stuff, other than misc views, most of which are probably bots, add bots, and not real humans. I need to be around real humans, impact real people, if hope to ever achieve anything, and so figured a new car would compel me to do so. But the payments are what scared me away. And as I sit home, on a day like today, feel oh so uninspired to do anything, I'm just wondering if I had that shiny new Dodge out there, would just having it out there have inspired me to go do something I otherwise would not have? Cause if not, than just a waste of money. If I get new car, and all it does is sit in parking spot, than what's the point?
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Post by Admin on Apr 2, 2022 22:57:40 GMT
I think the only thing that can fix me is having love in my life, and really that's the bottom line, at least for me
I think when properly paired with another, life just totally changes, and until that's done, I think everything else is just filler material.
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Post by Admin on Apr 23, 2022 21:22:06 GMT
I hate people who disturb others with their loud, low base, car stereos.
If there's a hell, I hope those types are the first to go there.
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Post by Admin on Apr 26, 2022 0:37:36 GMT
I'm sober now, and feel myself changing, at least today. I don't know what to make of it. When drunk, I do know I turn more inward, the artistic side of self comes out. When sober, as in not drinking at all, over time, I notice I tend to focus on more external issues and things, and less on the abstract. All the colorful characters I come up with, I do so when drunk or drinking.  This character was born out of being drunk, but when sober, this character tends to fade away. Not sure how to analyze that. When drunk, I want to be the creative one, when sober I look to others to be the creative ones. This is some stuff for phycologist to study. I guess being drunk has the same effect on me that getting stoned has on others. I can't get stoned, so I drink, or drunk, instead. Like right now, I'm sober, no booze in my system. I have plenty of energy, have lost lots of weight since stopped drinking, but yet I don't feel artistically creative at all. I actually feel like hanging out with people right now, but over the years I've failed to make friends cause to busy drinking, but now that sober, I do sort of want to expand my world a bit, or a lot. Just depends, people aren't exactly nice, nor do many people have good intentions. Many are suspicious and spread nasty mean rumors about others. And many peoples moral compass isn't based on the old biblical idea of right and wrong, but rather who knows what. There are people out there without a conscious, none at all what so ever, just watch crime stoppers or any crime show on TV, and you'll see that. So me wanting to expand my social world, not sure if that's good or bad actually. I've gotten this far by sticking to myself for the most part. The internet has ruined many peoples reputations. |
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Post by Admin on Apr 26, 2022 0:40:33 GMT
Like right now, since have so much energy, I'm anxious, but about what?
And now that sober, I don't want anyone from my past, who abandoned me during my drinking years, or creative years, back into my life.
I want to trudge forward.
This being sober stuff is like a new reality I'm having to adjust to.
It's like being reborn or something.
It's why on a evening like this, with so much energy, I have to resort to a 'to do list', or I'll just sit around on computer, and thinking, and getting absolutely nothing done at all.
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Post by Admin on Apr 27, 2022 4:01:06 GMT
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Post by Admin on May 11, 2022 13:33:57 GMT
I was in a pretty good mood yesterday, will that mood extend into today?
So many things effect our moods, what we eat, who we talk to, run into, what we hear and see in the media and so forth.
My mood was pretty good yesterday for some odd reason, and I can already tell today's mood will be different.
Moods are just a hard thing to figure out.
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Post by Admin on May 18, 2022 1:20:23 GMT
If some prude person looks at you through your window, and sees you naked, is that your fault?
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Post by Admin on Jun 4, 2022 2:08:07 GMT
For those who missed the Mike Tyson/Roy Jones Jr fight
Wow, wow.
Tyson 51, Jones 54? at time of this fight, wow..talk about staying fit.
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Post by Admin on Jun 4, 2022 14:53:28 GMT
I feel sucky today, it's kind of my fault I suppose, shouldn't drank yesterday, but I did, and here I am, today has arrived, and I feel sucky.
What more do ya need to know right now.
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Post by Admin on Jun 15, 2022 10:45:55 GMT
Sometimes you have to pretend you're in love with someone else, just to keep you sane and balanced.
Just to fool your body.
I even heard once that single people pass away on average earlier than those in relationships.
So I think as a good exercise, many single people simply pretend their in love with another, just to stay sane and balanced.
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Post by Admin on Jun 21, 2022 16:38:30 GMT
Just be  Getting clobbered by my own circumstances right now. Not the best day, not the worst, just another day.
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Post by Admin on Jun 26, 2022 4:49:00 GMT
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