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Post by Admin on Dec 10, 2023 19:08:34 GMT
When it feels like the devil has won When it feels like the devil has won...
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Post by Admin on Dec 10, 2023 19:10:19 GMT
When it feels like the devil has won, or has won, what do you do?
Call out to 'God'?
Well maybe it's god who put you in the ring with the devil to begin with, or maybe they're a tag team.
Who knows.
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Post by Admin on Dec 10, 2023 19:11:32 GMT
There's really no place for me in this world anymore, yet I keep living, and like the devil keeps doubling down.
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Post by Admin on Dec 31, 2023 20:45:22 GMT
Sin, fallen man, religion, the whole thing is kind of a sick twisted game.
The good get slain, while the evil prosper.
Everyone kind of a universe within themselves, type of deal, lies, hatred, ect and whatever.
I really kind of had to slow myself down today, from fallen back into the same emotional game, tug a war, and realized that this battle is not mine to win or lose, I'm simply a chess piece in it all.
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Post by Admin on Jan 1, 2024 1:06:37 GMT
Be weary of those who use the smear and run tactic on you
Be weary of those who use the smear and run tactic on you.
You know, they smear your name, character, in front of others or behind your back, and then run away so you can't respond, or hang up the phone....such types are rotten to the core, manipulative monsters that fear the truth, cause the truth will knock them off their perch.
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Post by Admin on Aug 26, 2024 13:17:21 GMT
It's Monday It's Monday. I worked out late yesterday evening in the dark, but woke up this morning feeling more like I had a hangover than that I had worked out the previous night. Body chemistry is just weird like that. Well, I'm going to workout again after this, why not, what else can I do with my anxioty other than workout. Drink? Hell no, not right now, that would just make things worse, like putting your head in the sand. Right now, the best thing for me to do is to stand up to reality and just face it 'as is', ugliness and all, just face it, get punched in the face by it. People are ugly, the human condition is ugly.The person who acts the nicest on the surface is ugly and harbors deep down or even surface biases and bigotry towards others. There's actually no reason for Jesus to have died for anyone on this planet, we're just flesh, we age, get sick, and rot like all other lifeforms. We manipulate truths and stories to fit our own needs, we are an ugly species, our natures are ugly, period. --------------------------------- Heck, even people who claim to know Jesus are ugly and vile and bigoted and mean and scared on the inside and use 'Jesus' and the gospel to slay others. Anyways, nothing much any of us can do unless lucky enough to be surrounded by friends and family that value you. And with that, it's time to go work off some anxioty and workout for a bit.
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Post by Admin on Aug 29, 2024 13:22:32 GMT
 My thing is this, when doesn't the devil ultimately win? Everyone I know who lives long enough eventually loses, and in a bad way, they get sick, lose everything, lose everyone, then die. Some, I suppose, die with people around them, but not sure how that's any better. I think I'd rather die alone than to have people around me who can't do anything just staring and gawking and thinking who knows what. It's why animals go off alone to do, other animals don't sit there watching them die....it's a dignity thing, I suppose. ------------------------------------ But that aside, I'm not now, nor have I ever been a match for the devil, or for God or any other spirit entity. I'm flesh, not much more higher on the scale of life than a goldfish.  ------------------------------------ I think hell begins for many of us before we die, and maybe you can only experience hell if alive. Maybe death is actually the only way to escape hell for some. Seems fate decides ahead of time our outcome here on earth...so maybe earth is simply where we're all carrying out our sentences from another existence....who knows. All I know is it's Wednesday and that time is no longer my friend and that it was stupid of me to ever think I could beat or outwit the devil or any other entity that hoovers around us, or this world. I'm less than nothing, but, but, I'm here, I'm self aware, so all I can do is live while alive, blows and all. |
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Post by Admin on Aug 29, 2024 13:30:10 GMT
This hymn is fitting for this page 
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Post by Admin on Oct 18, 2024 21:25:36 GMT
Reality can really bit hard at times  Reality, at least mine, can really bite hard at times. I guess some people can have very good pleasant realities, or we all can, at times, I suppose. But then there are other times when our own personal realities absolutely and totally suck and bite, as I feel mine kind of does right now. I guess it depends on what you want, wanted out of life, and what you expected of yourself to get you there. Some people do get more breaks than others, and other people, well, no breaks, just bites, big chunks of reality takes big chunky bites out of your behind. All one can really do is write about it as a way of relieving built of anxiety. And 'Time' also sucks, when reality sucks, so does time, which simply delivers you more of the reality that keeps biting. Oh well, what can you do about it.
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Post by Admin on Nov 20, 2024 17:09:22 GMT
 What is the devil? A real entity or just any force that opposes us, our will, our desires? Maybe both, either way I feel like evil or the devil has won, at least with me. I live now, it seems, just as a slave to always do stuff that's not optical for me, just going through the motions type of stuff, where you slowly die doing what you hate to do, being around those you don't connect with, and thus never prospering. I hate the devil, but there's nothing I can do about it, I've exhausted everything but nothing ever sways my way cause I'm surrounded by devils. Anyways, time to get up, start moving around, and fail at whatever it is I attempt to do. |
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