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Post by Admin on Apr 9, 2022 20:15:23 GMT
Hi and Hello! Hi and Hello everyone!, or the very few. I don't promote this thread anymore, I mean why should I? I think people tend to find what they want on their own, and then it means more. Sure, I could leave links with twitter, this that, but why. Anyways, I kind of like the above image of 'self', I cheer myself up at times be recreating me own image in the way I wish I could be all the time, the way I am on the inside. I like being bright and cheery, regardless of the worlds efforts to make you dark and gloomy. Especially as a male of color, everyone expects you to be a menace, dark and dangerous. Not I, said the fun loving nerdy sexy geek. If were a millionaire, and had mansion, I'd prounce around in Mansion, marble floors, as above, 90% of the time, in seclusion and privacy, not bugging no one. Just me, my feet, legs, imagination and marble floors.   Yes, I'd be happy within Mansion, maybe a few cats, a dog, a few goats (for humor)(Goats are so funny). Fish, and more. I'd just be free to be me outside of other peoples horrible vision of what they need me to be to feel 'correct'. And this applies to many others, not just me, myself and I. Many others just want to be free as well, to be themselves, to laugh, smile, and be the beautiful self they are on the inside, regardless of gender, age, color, ethnicity and more. Flesh so gets in the way of freedom at times. This, and a few other blog forums me, myself and I dwell on, are some of the few places where M beauty can be displayed through art without 'sleaze' factor. It really grosses me out how males who want to display softer sides of self, are always led to 'P' images, and exploited. Not here, here if want to look and feel beautiful in your own kind of way, no exploitation, just art. Abstract art for the thinking class, the more advanced class, which is becoming more and more rare by the day. And may request this be brought up in podcast, cause it's an issue that really does bug me greatly. Anyways, time to get on with the day. And in mind, will pretend I am actually in Mansion, walking barefoot on marble floors, and opening front door to view vast meadow, green grass and mountains in the background. A blast from the past, Oh how I wish I really did live in this Mansion. Why should corrupt Russian Oligarchs have all the fun and wealth? |
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Post by Admin on Apr 10, 2022 3:14:42 GMT
Been in a weird mood for the last day and a half or so.
I think it's do to all the body cleansing herbs I've been taking lately, I don't know.
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Post by Admin on Apr 10, 2022 3:17:43 GMT
Everything, our mood that is, evolves around what we eat, and I know I always feel fine when not working, why is that?
Cause when not working I don't eat junk food, it's only when working, and out there, do I eat corner store junk food out of boredom.
Like hot dogs, grill type of stuff, self serve type of food at travel stores.
I don't know what's going on with my body as of late, sometimes I feel as if I'm morphing into a new creature or something
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Post by Admin on Apr 10, 2022 3:23:07 GMT
continued from above... And maybe I am morphing into a new creature, since stopped drinking, for the most part, and taking herbs, maybe I'm healing on the inside and it just feels weird. Maybe I was closer to death than I thought, and body is now healing, brain is healing, organs are healing. Heck, I even bought this..  Haven't taken it yet. It's a liver and gallbladder cleanse, natural stuff, herbs and all. But I mean if I'm healing on the inside, maybe emotions and other natural functions coming back that have been dormant for a decade, do to always drinking. |
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Post by Admin on Apr 17, 2022 17:01:36 GMT
Wow, Chaka Kahn was hot when she was younger, I guess we all are though 
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Post by Admin on Apr 18, 2022 19:52:25 GMT
Soaring high
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Post by Admin on Apr 19, 2022 9:40:34 GMT
Here's some more Grace under fire 
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Post by Admin on Apr 25, 2022 22:13:48 GMT
If I get a newer car, another car, I want to be able to pay for it in cash, I'm so not into payments, even for a few months.
If I can't pay cash for it, than I don't need it.
And if it means waiting a while longer, so be it, I'd rather have cash saved up, and not need it, than to need cash and not have it.
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Post by Admin on May 9, 2022 2:17:58 GMT
When at work, and energy is high, and listening to the radio, talk radio, sports radio, some music, my head is spinning with ideas and topics to write about and comment on. Then when I get home, energy level is lower, and all those thoughts and ideas I wanted to write about, comment on, just dissipate into thin air. When home, none of it seems important anymore. What seems important when home is a good ole fashion scary or suspenseful movie.  But even good ole fashion scary movies are becoming harder and harder to track down, thanks to streaming companies dividing them all up. I miss the ole fashion Walmart movie bin. But now, notice how all those movies we use to watch on our DVD players on computer, are now the same movies these streaming companies charge us to watch. I recently got rid of all my DVD movies, maybe I should of kept them. |
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Post by Admin on May 11, 2022 2:23:06 GMT
This song, Modern love, by David Bowie, has just got me in a good mood for some reason Here's the weird thing, I drank last night, about 8 cans of beer, normally when I do that I wake up feeling awful the next day, but this time I didn't, instead I woke up feeling pretty good, and that good feeling has lasted all day and into the night, and not sure why. And while drinking last night, I kept playing the song 'Modern Love', by David Bowie over and over again, and now it's stuck in my head. Is it the song that's making me feel so happy? Or is it something else or a combination of other things? Let's see 1. Is it the effects of the herbs I've been taking lately, in the form of tea? I've been doing this now for a bit over a month, different types of herbs, like cloves, liver and gallbladder cleanse.. This and other herbs from same place and 'The life tree purify' as well.  Just ordered another bottle today. So, with all these herbs running through my system, my body is cleaner than it's been in a decade or more, so is that why I suddenly feel so happy, even after drinking heavy last night? And I also had a good conversation with, not really a friend, but an acquaintance, a person who use to be my dispatcher, and we still stay in touch, mainly me with them, I see them more as my little brother, even though they're anything but little. And I actually want to make them my power of attorney soon and one day, since I have no one else in mind. They're a solid strong good man, a caring Father, and they've proven that to me over time. And well, I'm just off from work, so is it all these things combined that has me in a decent mood? I just don't know. I can't say I've stopped drinking all together, but can say I've cut back drastically...lately maybe once or twice a week, but even that's to much for me if want to maintain decent health. My heavy drinking years need to be apart of my history. Anyways, I'm in a pretty decent mood and just trying to figure out why, and I still can't get David Bowies song out of my head. I love this song, not sure why I'm just now being touched by it.
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Post by Admin on May 16, 2022 9:53:11 GMT
Early morning thoughts  Well, I felt like writing, but now already out of the mood. It's early morning still, the sun is still not out, good, jus the way i like it. Dark mornings are a time of reflection, just before the industrial sick world awakens, and like programmed sheep, the roads will be full of traffic and cars soon. Corrupt evil people will wake up soon to, and begin plotting how to rob, hurt and get over on others. These people exist on all levels of society, the streets as well as wealthy billionaire clubs and societies. Trillions of dollars released into the atmosphere of corrupt agencies, people and foundations, trillions released under covid, and the world is in just as bad a shape as ever. And now billions and billions more sent to Ukraine, where to the money will just evaporate. The biggest theives, of course, exist in the administrative state. Those of us who were taught principles, and to 'fear god' and all, well we remain tiny, small and near broke all of the time. Anyways, think I'll lay back down for a while, as the darkness is my shelter and my blanket at times.
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Post by Admin on Jun 12, 2022 11:55:51 GMT
Years ago, I never thought I'd be living such a non traditional existance at this stage of my life.
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Post by Admin on Jun 13, 2022 19:28:40 GMT
Really not into social media anymore, not sure the purpose of it is anymore either  Was about to log into my 'MEWE' account, which I haven't visited in months, but then was like 'why?' What will have changed? I'd log in, view a empty page or feed, maybe post a few videos ect, and that's it...I mean what's the point? I think social media only matters when you have a ton of friends who use the platforms to communicate. But if just alone, no friends, social media can be just as lonely as real life. Comments, opinions, so what. In the end if you can't actually make real friends, as in call up on the phone type of friends, then what's the point? I think myself, like others, after a while you just kind of outgrow social media, and the need to giggle and all over peoples comments. I like the internet, don't get me wrong, cause it's still the best way to project yourself out there, art, books, your brand, but other than that, social media has pretty much been a fizzle to me the whole time. This place here isn't social media, this place here is quiet, the way I need and want it.
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Post by Admin on Jul 11, 2022 18:40:51 GMT
Chirping bird
There's a bird outside my balcony window area chirping, and for some reason it's annoying the hell out of me.
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Post by Admin on Jul 11, 2022 18:43:06 GMT
My whole existence is pretty much annoying the hell out of me right now...just in a very off mood today.
And when in a off mood, is when the smallest things get to you, even words not appearing as fast as you type them do to background programs, or whatever...just annoyed by it all today.
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