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Post by Admin on Feb 1, 2022 5:20:47 GMT
Part 2, the Landing
Gotta live while alive.
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Post by Admin on Feb 5, 2022 3:02:58 GMT
The older I get, the less I care about what others, who are not my friends, think about me  The older I get, the less time I have on this Earth, the less I care about what others think about me, be they blood family or co-workers or whomever, it just stops mattering after a while. I mean if some ones' never been there for me, never lends me money, never calls to see how I'm doing, than screw them. If I had died a decade ago, they would not as so much as even noticed or cared, so the way I figure it, screw them. Just not trying to impress those I'm dead to. I don't even know those people anymore, be they blood relatives or others from the past. I have a few more decent years left on this Earth and I'll live them, express self, however I see fit.
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Post by Admin on Feb 7, 2022 17:17:41 GMT
The older you get, the more careful you have to be where you focus your energy biological energy is not infinite, and the amount of energy we have to spend in our lives is limited. The older you get the more you realize that, thus you stop sweating the small stuff, stuff that may of seemed 'big deal' years ago, starts to seem small as you age. And even that depends on personal circumstances in that the more resources one has, the wealthier one is, the more they can emotionally afford to still sweat the small stuff. But if one is barely above the poverty line and aging, than no, the small stuff just takes up valuable energy. ---------------------------------------- Not all of us were able to live that 'fairytale' type of life, that 'Just follow your dreams' type of life, not all of us were able to achieve much of anything, but yet we're still here. But still, just being 'here', still takes energy and resorces. 
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Post by Admin on Feb 7, 2022 17:18:38 GMT
The older you get, the more careful you have to be where you focus your energy biological energy is not infinite, and the amount of energy we have to spend in our lives is limited. The older you get the more you realize that, thus you stop sweating the small stuff, stuff that may of seemed 'big deal' years ago, starts to seem small as you age. And even that depends on personal circumstances in that the more resources one has, the wealthier one is, the more they can emotionally afford to still sweat the small stuff. But if one is barely above the poverty line and aging, than no, the small stuff just takes up valuable energy. ---------------------------------------- Not all of us were able to live that 'fairytale' type of life, that 'Just follow your dreams' type of life, not all of us were able to achieve much of anything, but yet we're still here. But still, just being 'here', still takes energy and resorces. (Online bookstores) |
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Post by Admin on Feb 8, 2022 23:19:34 GMT
I've gotten to the point now that if I have some ones number in my phone, if I have to call them twice or more with no return, I just delete their number from my phone.
I've learned from the past that such people are a dead end.
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Post by Admin on Feb 14, 2022 6:12:35 GMT
I don't even know who won the Superbowl, that's how much it meant to me I guess.
I was leaning towards the Rams though, probably cause haven't seen the Bengals play all year.
It's like they just appeared out of nowhere in the end, shows how little I follow any of it anymore.
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Post by Admin on Feb 20, 2022 5:23:24 GMT
 Pretty much out of healthy food in my place, as in fruit, where did it all go so fast? Now nothing in fridge healthy to eat, dern. ---------------------------- Just threw some lemon slices in blender, with other pulverized fruit from earlier, and drank some of it. The only fruit I have in fridge are lemons, so I made fruit-aid from it. Other than that, not much going on today, a very laid-back dull Saturday, now going on Sunday. Let's see, what can I get into this early time of the morning. |
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Post by Admin on Feb 28, 2022 13:54:36 GMT
How many people wish they could erase their past? How many people with they could erase their past? Well I say no and don't, rather I think it better to share your past rather than erase it. For everyone is a library within themself. You need to be the canvas rather than always gazing upon another's canvas.
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Post by Admin on Mar 17, 2022 2:55:07 GMT
 In a pretty mellow mood right now, mood is stable, and I'm not in pain at the moment. Been suffering pain lately do to inflammation caused by who knows what. Been reading that parasites, some, can cause inflammation and joint pain. Been reading that some parasites can even effect people sex drive, like Viagra and all, I guess some parasites enjoy the sensation of sex also, while they're in your body. I read where they can and do, often change their hosts DNA or RNA code, that then effects your mood and behavior. Makes me think that maybe parasites are the ones who engineered man and other life, and simply use us as vessels to exist in, if they can do all that. Anyways, more on that stuff later. Have lost lots of weight since stopped drinking, and eating as much. And I took a test ride in a Dodge Challenger yesterday...cool, but can't afford the $450.00 a month or so payments, or if I did I'd be miserable. I hate to have gone through the prime of my life without ever enjoying the thrill of a sports car, a newer one. Oh well. At least at the exact moment I'm typing this, things are mellow and I'm well. Can't say the same 5 minutes from now though. |
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Post by Admin on Mar 23, 2022 16:11:26 GMT
I'm hanging on for self, and don't ask anything from anyone, but what I don't need is someone being a drag to 'self'.
No one ever helps me to prosper, other than let's say job, and job is just basic income.
No one every helps me to prosper mentally, spiritually, artistically, fiscally, in no way shape or form.
So I owe no one nothing, is how I see it.
I take from no one, and so owe no one.
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Post by Admin on Apr 2, 2022 1:41:28 GMT
I'm finally off  Finally off, but unlike Fred and Simpson, I don't have that type of energy when get off work. Probably cause don't have wonderful family to get home to, or pets who are happy to see me. So when I get off, every so grateful, but not exactly jumping around with energy. Although now that no longer drink, my energy powerband is different. Now that no longer drinking, I guess it's up to me to engineer the type of off work life I think I'd enjoy. Another thing....'Let's hang out'...a lady friend wanted to just hang out, about a month ago, what does that mean? It's been years since I just hung out with anyone without a grand master plan. If I remember correctly, the only time you just hang out with someone is if you plan to get romantic with them, I mean why else would you just hang out? I don't know, I just don't socialize much anymore, I blame that on social media. Cause I just lay all my thoughts out online, instead of days of old where you had to find someone to dump your thoughts onto. Anyhow, time to get settled in, I should be happier than I am, cause I do believe I have the next 4 days off.
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Post by Admin on Apr 8, 2022 2:55:24 GMT
I felt like the dizzy sissy today, after cleaning place up basically from dusk to dawn
I worked as hard as the dizzy sissy today, cleaning up my place.
But unlike the dizzy sissy, who's to dizzy and silly to get tired, I do get tired and am now wore out just in
time for bed and then to get up and be a slave (go to work)...yuk and double yuk.
But in the mean time, watching the dizzy sissy clean just relieves me of stress at times, if we could all only be so dizzy and immune from the hardships of life.
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Post by Admin on Apr 9, 2022 20:04:26 GMT
On a day like today, there's nothing really to get me up and out of place.
Usually addictions get you up and out, as in stuff like alcohol and or tabacoo.
And or harder stuff, if into harder stuff, I'm not, but for me it's usually alcohol and or tobaco that finally makes me get up and out and to the store.
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Post by Admin on Apr 9, 2022 20:06:12 GMT
I also think when you're single, your moods get the better of you.
I think, know, when in a relationship, or living with another or others, you don't have time to sink so deeply into your moods.
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Post by Admin on Apr 9, 2022 20:10:15 GMT
I can see why they say single people die earlier than those who are paired, cause body probably just thinks you haven't as much to live for, strive for, and maybe that's why i write so much is to give sense a feeling of mattering. I don't know, I probably think more than anyone else on the planet, and if not more, I certainly write down my thoughts more than anyone else on the planet.  |
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