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Post by Admin on Dec 29, 2023 4:14:25 GMT
When I get home from work, late at night, I feel so utterly dead on the inside, like stripped of any kind of emotion other than dread.
Maybe cause I'm single, and have no one, no love, no 'body', or even a pet, to come home to.
Aging while single, I tell ya, I guess that's OK when wealthy and live in a mansion, but when still working a normal hourly job, it can be very bland at times.
I always, drink, party hardest (with self) the day before I return to work, and the contrast from the night before, and the day ahead, could be more opposite.
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A lot of changes could be coming within 5 months or less, not really looking forward to it, but I may be driven out of this place by economic nessisity. I just can't keep wasting money on rent, if I don't have to.
I love it here there, kind of, but may have to move on to the unknown.
As you get older, what really does one have to look forward to?
When younger, I looked forward to 'Heaven'...hmm, now, I don't know.
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Post by Admin on Jan 21, 2024 2:25:12 GMT
My hourly wage job dares to call me when I'm off work...are you kidding me?
Why would I degrade my body and brain by working when scheduled not to...f that.
Hourly wage earning, today, is the least effecient way to earn money, I'd rather spend time writing a book, or trying to sell one of my inherited properties, or just selling junk in apartment, than waste 18 hours basically working for free.
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Post by Admin on Feb 23, 2024 14:20:57 GMT
This current job of mine has got to go, I'm so ready for new challenges.
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Post by Admin on Mar 9, 2024 18:40:42 GMT
I'm no longer employed, by choice.
Some life changing things are occurring, and I just don't have time for some job to interfere with my schedule right now.
If things go right, I'll have many months of income on which to relax, for a while, rather than barely staying afloat with the way things are going now.
What a joke income is, if not getting you ahead at all, you're just wasting your life, health, energy and time, especially as you get older.
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Post by Admin on Mar 10, 2024 2:48:27 GMT
If I play my cards right, I may not have to work again for at least a few months, while getting other stuff done...we shall see.
None of it's easy though, but trying to re-engineer my life going forward to make it easier on self down the road, which starts with selling some property that's in disrepair...well, could repair and fix up, but I don't have the funds for that, and I'm not the one who tore the inside of place up.
Shared property type of situation...but I'm ready to cash out.
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Post by Admin on Oct 19, 2024 18:43:36 GMT
Feel like I'm in a repeating nightmare of failure that will just never end.
They say, and I know, in order to cope with stuff or a situation you don't like, you have to change your attitude...but to me that's kind of like defeat.
You have to convince yourself that being 'abused' is OK...
And when I say being abused, I mean that in a broader symbolic way, as in anytime you're in a situation you don't like or that doesn't favor you or your interests, you're basically being abused and your physical time and energy are being exploited more so for another gain, or a companies gain.
For instance, I can never go back to a company where all I am is blind mindless labor, or have to 'cover up', as in wear safety gear etc.
I value looks, style, flair, fashion, and I'm sick of working for places where you have to hide who you are for some greater good or compliance...F that.
Do not bury me while I'm still alive.
I want to live and shine, I want people to see how good I can look, no more hiding me out in the back rooms or buried deep in a truck away from society...F that.
Whatever few years of physical prosperity I have left, I want to live and physically shine!
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Post by Admin on Oct 20, 2024 3:11:59 GMT
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Life, your life, is only limited to the choices you make.
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Post by Admin on Nov 22, 2024 23:51:53 GMT
Lazer Spot Well, if I have to continue to drive, I'd rather work for a company like Lazor spot, who specializes in hauling loads and trailers on lots for customers. This way I earn a decent check, and home daily, and don't even have to leave the city. I'm so sick of traveling, the traffic, etc. But being a yard jock isn't for everyone in that you have to move around a lot more, but that suits my fancy just fine actually. And no log books, awesome. Since spend most time on private lots, no dern DOT log books to fill out, and was told they deal more with OSHA. Anyways, this will probably be my last full weekend off in a very long time. I applied for 2 other jobs, but they took to long to respond so, oh well. Now go get your shine box...
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