When Drunk

Like right now, I've pre purchased 4 items in Amazon cart, and the total is a tad bit over 300 dollars, these are items I need, and am constantly lusting over, but when sober always talk self out of buying, always trying to save money (for what, I'm only getting older and closer to death)

So when 'drunk' it's easier to just hit 'next' or 'buy now' than when sober.

Life is hard regardless, prices on everything going up, but if going to always be poor anyways, would rather be poor and have stuff, than to be poor and have nothing.

Two of the items ordering could be considered 'toys', but buying them for other uses as in 'filming'...then some shoes and a internet router, tired of paying comcast monthly fee, and if ever have to up and move suddenly, better to just have my own router rather than having to rent one.

these are stuff I need like now..but the 300 dollar price tag a bit scary.

And on top of that rent is do soon and rent going up....but again, regardless of all that other tough life stuff, I still need to be comfortable at home.

Cause when home, income don't matter, all you notice while at home and off work is whether or not comfortable or not.

Sometimes just get tired of saving like it matters when it really doesn't.

I need to live now while alive and healthy, and not keep worrying about how going to live when old and sickly and ugly and not sexy to anyone.

If anything I'll solve that problem for myself in seconds and just be done.

I think 'now' is the time to live..hmm...twylightzone.boards.net/thread/488/tomorrow?page=1

If 'fate' is against me, than it won't matter what I save.

Anyways, I need to go ahead and press 'complete order tab'.

Will update soon.