Addiction proverbs, sentiment and sayings

I feel like I'm emerging from hell, after yesterdays drinking



I literally feel like I'm crawling out of hell, a place I feel I've been since all of today do to my drinking yesterday night.

It's like I literally get possessed when I drink, and a spirit comes out of me and guides me to do and say things that when sober I would not. And or even go certain places that I doubt I'd go if sober, as in a LGBTQ club.
I went to one last night...nothing happened, didn't even really meet anyone, and was there for less than 15 minutes, but the fact that I went, is what's so eerie to me.

Cause bad things happen when you leave the sanctuary of your own home, for sure, especially when in party mode....you say stupid things, people take things the wrong way, violence can occur, or you can get in a wreck and more.

Prior to yesterday I was doing so well...and most of yesterday, until around 4 pm, when I started drinking beer...shame on me...I was sober for the previous 6 days.

I didn't even answer the phone today, didn't go into the 'studio' to learn anything, ignored my so called instructor, all because I drank to much yesterday.

Again, shame on me, and today I've been sealed off from the world, and phone is still off.

Hell has had a hold of me all day long...but I'll rebound, I garuntee you that....and lessons will have been learned, for sure...hopefully anyways.