|
|
Post by Admin on Jul 11, 2023 15:42:49 GMT
I laid in bed, this late morning, just thinking all kind of thoughts about my own future, and no path was really good, short term yes, long term, no.
Like where I stay now, I'm sure it's last year here, and when you get older, moving absolutely sucks, especially when alone...and or what happens if get sick, or ill, or inured and alone *certain keypad letter doesn't work'
Yep, the future, my own, doesn't look to be all that bright, but I do have today, I suppose, which will start of with me taking out the trash, which is a task since they moved the garbage bin, and then probably going to the grocery store and buying a few items.
I don't need a lot, but still, it's hard to walk out of grocery store with a bill under 60 dollars these days.
And then after that, I'll come back to a messy apartment and well, who knows.
|
|
|
|
Post by Admin on Jul 18, 2023 16:28:43 GMT
It's Tuesday It's Tuesday, I drank to much yesterday night, and well, ugg, the day already starting off in the hole for me. ust getting up, it's noon time, and well, the only good thing about the day so far for me is that I don't have to work today, so can once again slump around and basically do nothing, but eat, which I'm about to do. Have some hamburger patties I'll thaw out, maybe fry an egg, and make some kind of sandwich out of it, wish I had some cheese, oh well. And with that, time to head for the kitchen and pretend today has meaning to me. It's a Tuesday summer.
|
|
|
|
Post by Admin on Jul 25, 2023 12:56:45 GMT
Have roofers on the roof right now, how can I relax with that stuff going on.
This is my last day to get right before returning to work tomorrow.
I've been in a weird physiological state these last few weeks and days.
I don't know if all vitamins are good vitamins, meaning who knows what's put in some of that stuff, especially if order from Amazon and if it's made in China.
|
|
|
|
Post by Admin on Jul 25, 2023 12:57:30 GMT
I'd rather be alone, than to have people around me who are negative.
|
|
|
|
Post by Admin on Jul 25, 2023 13:14:20 GMT
Anyways, it's Tuesday, and I'm as ill prepared to deal with today emotionally as I was trying to deal with Monday, yesterday.
I've just been off kilter lately physiologically speaking.
|
|
|
|
Post by Admin on Aug 1, 2023 13:53:10 GMT
It's Tuesday It's Tuesday, and I'm still here, wow. I wish time would stop pushing me towards tomorrow, cause tomorrow, enough of them strung together, simply leads to a cliff. I wish I could stop time. Anyways, it's Tuesday, not much going on at the moment, I'm off, I'm somewhat relaxed, and that's my starting point for the day. My hair is longer and thicker than it's ever been in my life, even though I'm older than I've ever been in my life as well. Every day you wake up, you're older than you've ever been in your life. I need to start treating my body better, that's for sure. Anyways, let's see what the day has instore. Its' Tuesday.
|
|
|
|
Post by Admin on Aug 8, 2023 21:24:40 GMT
It's Tuesday  It's Tuesday, and I've pretty much spent the whole day, so far, doing nothing that matters, why? Cause I drank yesterday, that's why, and well, you know how that goes. Today is recovery day. But priot to yesterday I went 11 days dry. Oh well, at least I'm off today and tomorrow. It's Tuesday and I'm still here, what a chump I am.
|
|
|
|
Post by Admin on Sept 5, 2023 16:28:04 GMT
It's Tuesday  I'm in a odd mood right now. I did drank yesterday, even though wasn't planning on it, but some things happened that gave me an excuse to. And now, about to go help someone do something. Basically yet another totally wasted time off from work spent basically doing nothing and getting nothing done. But does it really matter in the end? ---------------------- Been in a self degridating mood as of late, where I lay in bed and pretend whatever. Also, I'm watching some episodes of the twilight zone that I've never seen before, the further you get into the series the more it starts taking on more of a 'Outer Limits' sci-fi feel. All that aside, it's Tuesday, and I'm worthless to self. (About to turn on the phone, what type of useless calls and texts will be waiting?)
|
|
|
|
Post by Admin on Sept 5, 2023 16:29:45 GMT
I'm so use to being alone, so not really stirred when others around me have issues, cause, well, I'm not.
I'm just concerned about my own immediate comfort.
Sounds selfish, but hey, when alienated from others for so long, you lose empathy for others, even if those others are family you never ever see.
|
|
|
|
Post by Admin on Sept 20, 2023 1:50:40 GMT
It's Tuesday Yep, it's Tuesday, and life is still tough, and mean, and brutal most of the time. Not so much life, but rather the people born and alive, are the ones who are or can be so viscous and mean. All I am is alive, I'm not rich, I don't prosper, I just live, all I have to offer others is myself and my life energy, if that's not enough, oh well. Anyways, it's Tuesday. For the record, like a air force fighter jet went missing for a few days after the pilot ejected, and the plane kept flying....they finally found the downed jet. What else is going on...Oh ye, Deon Sanders is hot right now, and has his Colorado Buffalo team 3-0 so far, but their next game is the Oregon Ducks...any wages on this game?? I should get into sports betting...hmm. Anyways, it's Tuesday, life is tough and hard but doesn't mean we have to be...later and out.
|
|
|
|
Post by Admin on Sept 26, 2023 12:56:24 GMT
It's Tuesday, so what, I'd just assume lay in bed all day; but instead rented a vehicle cause I gotta do some out of town traveling today, to go view some property...yuk.
Why do I say yuk?
Cause I'm just tired, tired of failing, tired of the same sorry outcomes, regardless of my effort. I guess I've just kind of lost hope that anything will ever turn out OK for me...sure I get by, but I never seem to prosper, and I've just about given up on ever thinking I will.
I have no one or nothing to really fight for anymore, all my heroes are gone, other than one.
I'm just tired, my spirit is tired, seems going forward life is just going to punish me, as each day a bit of the world I used to know seems to dissolve more and more.
I'd just assume lay in bed all day cause my individual efforts are no match against fate, and if fate has decided I live a meaningless life and existence, who am I, I have learned, to challenge that.
That being said, it's Tuesday, and so just going through the motions.
|
|
|
|
Post by Admin on Oct 17, 2023 18:52:22 GMT
Terrible Tuesday As soon as I turn on the phone, hell will begin for me. The main thing is, is I scheduled a trip out of town, or 7 days off, without telling the company I work for and in less than a month! I was drunk, what do you expect, but now I gotta go...and even I know you don't do that. But here's the thing, I haven't taken a vacation in over a year. But also, they tell you not to schedule time off during the holidays. I never do anything wrong at that company, so hopefully I have some good grace points. I'm going to see ___ _____. Anyways, I'm nervous about calling the company, cause can already hear the noise. And I'm not cancelling the trip... Will I lose my job? I doubt it, cause they're already undermanned, but still I feel bad, cause normally I just don't do stuff like this. Don't ever make rash decisions while drinking or drunk. I wish there was a breathalyzer made for phones and texting, that way when drunk you can't text stupid things, or call people and make a fool out of yourself on the phone.Oh well, I've put it off long enough, about to make some waves on this terrible Tuesday, at least for me. I think it's Tuesday?
|
|
|
|
Post by Admin on Oct 18, 2023 3:43:17 GMT
What a wasted Tuesday, I did absolutely nothing today I get all this time off and I do absolutely nothing with it. But maybe sometimes just chilling out and not feeling like you have to always do something is a good thing. I'd better enjoy this calmness in my life while it's here. That aside, it's Tuesday, less than 30 minutes left until tomorrow comes rushing in (midnight) I wish I could find a good movie to watch, I so feel like escaping into a good movie, just to get my mind off of my own life for a while.
|
|
|
|
Post by Admin on Oct 24, 2023 14:06:06 GMT
It's a dizzy Tuesday, oh heck...  It's a dizzy Tuesday, oh heck. Anyways, Tuesday is here, and so am I, Tuesday though, will win, and end up atop of me and my useless pathetic life and existence. (OK, enough of the dramatics) Anyways, I wish I could get a redo in life, but I can't, or actually each day we wake up is or can be our own personal 'redo', I suppose. Anyways, it's dizzy Tuesday, my brains still warming up.
|
|
|
|
Post by Admin on Oct 25, 2023 2:12:57 GMT
It's Tuesday  It's Tuesday, ye, and?..  I mean I'm here, but the world just seems like such a rotten place at times...(meaning the people in it, those who lord over others, as in governments, administrators, ect) Everyone's just wicked, from the people on the streets to those in high offices and places, everyone just seems so wicked now days, and dishonest. People lie, and make stuff up now, like it's their second nature to do so. Whatever happened to people having a conscious, and like fearing or at least respecting the 10 commandments, 'Thall shall not lie' (or bare false witness) I mean I'm no holy roller type, but was at least raised with basic decent principles on how to behave and treat others....but most, today, aren't. It's like a bunch of soulless human zombies walking around. Hamas is going nuts, criminals in America are going nuts, our own government is going nuts by auctioning off these here United States of America...this nation will soon go bankrupt....but in the meantime everyone is getting there's, while telling us working class types to continue to have faith in the system, ye right...  Anyways, it's Tuesday, I'm still here, and still a underachiever. Life isn't getting no easier, that's for sure. Have you seen the price of meat lately?If you voted for Biden, you need your head examined, sorry, but you do. Anyways, I'm in self destruct mood, I'm _____ when I shouldn't be. I need help, but no one's strong enough to help me...oh well, life goes on...
|
|
