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Post by Admin on Oct 8, 2023 2:42:18 GMT
Saturday  I almost kind of felt like going out tonight, as I drove through the city finishing up my shift, but nah, in the end, I didn't. I really stopped going out about 5 years ago or so, not sure why. I think back when did go out, I had a higher paying job, which gave me confidence, cause would buy people drinks, tip large, and never worry about money, but once I lost that job, my self-esteem and confidence just dropped. Throwing money around like I didn't need it, just made me feel good, but now I need the money and so don't throw it around nearly as much...lol.. Yep, it's Saturday, and I'm home alone, and bored as usual, as other people around the city are having wild steps, probably...oh well...poor poor me.
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Post by Admin on Jan 28, 2024 4:17:27 GMT
It's Saturday night It's Saturday night, I worked today, been off, home, for about an hour or so. I haven't gone out on a Saturday night in years, those days feel so behind me, but they don't have to be. All the places I used to go to have since closed down, and I just haven't been in the spirit to go out lately. It's only fun going out when you have lots of cash, and a decent car. No fun going out when you feel like you're near broke, or going broke in slow motion. ----------------------------- Yep, it's Saturday night, about to lay back and watch a few movies; although I never watch whole movies from beginning to end hardly anymore. I usually watch 10 minutes here, 15 minutes there, of another movie, and so forth. A movie really has to be good for me to watch all the way through. And most movies I watch now, I've seen before, cause it's so hard to find new ones worth my time. Anyways, time to lay back and give the brain a rest. It's Saturday night in January, I think.
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Post by Admin on Feb 11, 2024 3:03:31 GMT
It's Saturday night, I got off a bit earlier than usual.
Came home, rested (think I got a slight bug), made some garlic/onion tea, and now about to finish assembling a camcorder I bought my Mother as a gift, but they never used it, so I took it with me when I left, cause, well, now I could sure use it.
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Post by Admin on Jun 22, 2024 17:07:37 GMT
Saturday notes Well, it's Saturday and I'm still here, sometimes not sure why. Maybe not the best attitude to have, but when single, alone and have no family of your own, you do have thoughts like that, at times. I try to keep myself busy by doing this or that, but sometimes I'm like 'Who are you kidding?' Failure seems to be my benchmark, failure, let down and disappointment. Obviously not in the brightest mood right now, just finally got up out of air mattress, and it's already after 12 noon...wow. I don't really get going anyways, until after 4 pm. --------------------------------------------------- What's in the news today? A mass shooting in Arkansas..hmm, happened yesterday. And Boeing still has a space capsule in space that has issues, leaks, and so keep delaying return to earth. And the war between Israel and Hamas continues, and it's summertime. Time to get on with the day which will start with a trip to the bathroom.
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Post by Admin on Jun 23, 2024 3:59:09 GMT
Just a few more minutes left on this Saturday.
It's been a odd day...
I just didn't know what to do with myself today, and still don't.
I have energy, yet still drank a few beers, not sure what's going on internally.
It's like I'm changing chronologically or in some other way...
It's like getting in the best shape, and the worst shape at the exact same time.
I'm working out more, cardio type stuff, walking, biking, yet since not working, also drinking more beers on average...say maybe 5 a day, average...that's to much, sometimes less, sometimes more...for me, that's to much though.
Anyways this day's about gone...I still have energy, so will write more of my screenplay out.
This moment in time and history would never be remembered had I not written down my thoughts, like a time stamp.
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Post by Admin on Jul 13, 2024 15:57:46 GMT
Better workout, or else, especially when older
Gyms are everywhere, as in their outside, on curbs, on the streets.
Just get creative.
Even the guard rails in this video can be used as leverage to stretch, do standing push ups and more.
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Post by Admin on Jul 14, 2024 2:31:28 GMT
Assassination attempt on Trump, tonight, if haven't already heard
They almost took Trump out tonight...wow...I say 'they' cause of course I'm sure there were others behind the lone gunman....we shall see.
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Post by Admin on Jul 20, 2024 19:18:07 GMT
It's Saturday It's Saturday, and I've been stuffed inside this room on computer all afternoon, I should go just do something outside this room for a while, but I'll wait till it cools down. That heat just knocks you back inside. ------------------------------ Ran an ad on C/L and as usual, always get the bottom of the social wrung who respond. Some drag queen type responded to a acting job I had posted, and turns out they're homeless and cars either in the shop or impounded...basically a needy person...needy people with nothing to lose and only stuff to gain by getting over on you can be dangerous to stability. They're homeless for a reason...drugs, booze, bad personality, irresponsible, it's something. You just don't go homeless for nothing, and lose your vehicle as well...it takes steps to get there. A homeless drag queen, hmm. If I were drunk I'd be all over that, as in calling them to do a interview or photo shoot, but since sober, as of late, I'm more careful. Anyways, it's Saturday..the above portrait taken today.
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Post by Admin on Jul 21, 2024 2:34:45 GMT
It's Saturday night It's Saturday night, people are out partying, making love, having sex, drinking, smoking pot, doing drugs, stealing, fighting, dancing, working and more, and here I sit in my room alone....working off of a 'to do list'. What a geeky life I lead. I even have a cool older sports care less than 30 feet away from me, parked, yet it sits idle on a Saturday night...wow...geeky me.
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Post by Admin on Jul 27, 2024 23:21:44 GMT
I tried laying down, tried possibly falling asleep, but my minds to unsettled for sleep right now.
I've got to much stuff to get done, like a ton of stuff, including finishing up writing s screenplay script.
It's a lot of mental work.
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I went out last night, like a fool.
By me going out, and drinking, it totally wrecked all the good will momentum I had built up prior to that...but thankfully since already in better shape, a bad night of drinking doesn't set me back as far as it would had I not already been in shape and not drinking.
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Post by Admin on Sept 21, 2024 17:53:21 GMT
It's Saturday! It's Saturday...what else can I say? The world continues to spin, and so does my head. I'll probably lay back down after this for a while. Already worked out, drank a few last night (stupid me) And now, I don't know...I'm a hostage to my own lazy habits and mind. Time is moving way to fast, as of late. Anyways, it's Saturday.
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Post by Admin on Sept 22, 2024 0:51:43 GMT
It's Saturday night, and again I'm alone, home alone, here but not here in that I'm not making an impact no where.
Time to break out the 'to do list'.
I'm also sober, so no drama, no emotional drama...just in a calm half dead mood...
Spent 100 dollars on so few items at the store...
Anyone who complains about inflation and grocery prices, yet votes for Harris, is a dern fool.
Vote for the one who'll make your life easier, not the one who you physically personally like.
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Post by Admin on Oct 12, 2024 12:53:31 GMT
It's Saturday It's Saturday and I feel like I've awakened into a dungeon of my own creating or creation...one of bad choices over the years, or past year, like it's all just come to a head. But unlike in the movies, there's no one to rush in and save me from my bad decisions, and the uncertainty that's fueled by those bad decisions. There's no Cavalry that's going to rush in and save me, I'm just not that special anymore to anyone.  Nope, no saving cavalry for me, I'm totally on my own. I don't even know what it's like to actually be cared for anymore, haven't had that feeling in decades. Anyways, I've got this day to prepare for a trip, I trip I should be happy about, but my mood, instead, has me feeling very skeptical. I just don't think I'm equipped with the right mental tools to make it in this world anymore, or ever. It's more like I've just managed to stumble my way through life, day by day, a stumbling fool.
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