Wednesday moments

Today, was a rare Wednesday off, and I tried making the most of it, mainly 'art' production.

But also went out and purchased a new football and basketball (big wow, I know)

But for me that's a good thing as I'm getting more and more in shape and having new balls helps make it more fun.

And other than going to park and using those balls to workout, not much has occurred today.

Health is OK, energy great, but health, OK, will explain later.

I'm losing weight and feeling better about self.

I'm down now about 14 pounds, and that's like nearly 2 gallon jugs of water.



OK, that's what I'm no longer carrying around on my body, and I already looked thin.
Think of all the extra stress on my organs and other joints that extra weight was causing.

I think 2 full 1 gallon jugs is around 16 pounds or so, I've lost around 14.

Anyways, time is flying, you know how that day before work goes, the closer you get to the next day, the faster time fly's, so let me do some other things here.

Well this days about over, and have to work tomorrow.
Even though in a decent late evening or night mood, the fact that I have to go labor tomorrow and do mindless work, that will add zero to my personal prosperity, other than earned income, prevents me from being fully happy right now.

I always measure the way I feel before returning to work, and how I feel on the last day of my duty days, and it's worlds apart, I mean worlds apart.

When get done with my row of work days, I'm spent, disorientated, less happy, crabby, lost, and sometimes actually physically sick or sicker from just being out there.

Home is where I'm the healthiest, it's where I restore both my mental and physical and sometimes spiritual health, but just being out there (at least in my blue collar work environment) shreds the hell out of my moral.

It's damaging actually to do something that your spirit is so in disagreement of.
But I do it cause only got to work 3 days a week, so I tolerate it for that.
I work 3 days a week but still get a full time check, not the best check but not the worst either.

Could I earn more? Hell ye I could, especially with what I do and there being a shortage and all, but the time to earn more was when I was younger, and actually had interest in my trade...now I don't.

And earning more means just being out there way more, hell no.

Sure I'd earn more, but at what expense to self?

I'm happiest when able to be at home and create stuff, art, music, videos, gifs whatever.

Out there I'm just a robot holding a steering wheel, with zero creative outlet.

And I have enough off days to where if anything I can get second passive income job, haven't yet, but that's my fault for not being focused enough.

Or if really need more money I'll give in and get a roommate or do the airbnb thing.

But to just go out there and labor more, nah, that's for donkeys.

Yep, it's still Wednesday.

Got oil change today, now home and a bit bored again, or just unmotivated to do anything that matters.

Also listening to some of that Supreme Court confermation hearing on Judge Ketinji Brown



I'm a person of color yes, but I'm not that type of 'black', meaning not as purely African as that woman.

In fact, most darker skinned black folks don't even really like me cause I wasn't raised around them.

Now this woman is bright and smart and yadda yadda yadda, but to me she's just another Ivy league aristocrat, and her being appointed to the Supreme court will in now way shape my future of destiny, no more or less than the others on that bench.

(Or maybe it will if one day her vote pushes through some law that I oppose).

I think she's married to a white dude, cool, good for her, cause in the hood, it's hard to find a male equivalent.

She also attended Harvard Law school.

No doubt she has the brains and maturity to be there, but to me, it's not about brains and maturity, it's about where one falls on the issues.
That's all I care about. One could have no brains, but if falls on right side of issues, than swell.

You know what's weird, is when you have a 'white person', tell you that other white people are more racist than you know them too really be.

In other words, what's weird is when you have a white person stereotyping other white people as being racist, who live in a certain area that you use to transverse years ago.

I mean maybe they know something that I don't know, in that people of the same color or race or ethnicity tend to talk to each other more candidly than those they don't think are like them.

So, maybe cause this guy's white, maybe he hears things from other white people that I do not, but still, just saying, for them to categorize every white person from like Iowa and the mid-West as being racist, is a bit too far for me.

A white person stereotyping other white people as being racist, that's just odd to me....especially when I know better.

But this person is younger than me and thinks they know everything, they kind of have a big ego, and thinks it's their job to look out for black folks.

in my opinion though, they still have a lot of learning and growing to do, we all do I suppose.

Anyways, it's Wednesday, still morning time, and I've got lots of little unfun type of stuff to try to get done today, one of those very no fun things is to resign my lease.

Wednesday moments



Just got in and I'm already bored, isn't that something?

I mean but when single, there's only so much you can do alone, there's only so much playing around you can do by yourself.

When alone all the time, you do have to get creative though, make up characters in your head, and live your life through them at times, just to make yourself not feel alone.
Just depends.

Some people come home to a hug or hello daily, for years, all their life, other people don't even know what it means to be loved and appreciated by another, yet we still must function.

And I'm just not a dateline type of person, datelines just seem cheesy to me, like a meat market.

Anyways, I'm home and bored already.
I have Disney +, but to lazy to sign in.

I need to do something though, cause I'm off tomorrow, maybe I'll turn the TV on for a bit.

It's Wednesday, nothing life changing happened today at all.

I did meet one of my neighbors for the first time, a young lady from New Jersey, very well spoken...

The more time I have off from work, the less I want to go back.

I use to think having 4 days off in a row is a good thing, and it is, as long you utilize the time properly.

But the danger of having 4 days off in a row is if you're not disciplined, you can fall back into bad habits, like drinking, getting lazy, ect.

If you drink every day, while off, you'll be absolutely no good to yourself.

I've been on this 4 days or 3 days off in a row schedule for over a year now, and have mixed feelings about it.
Again, having that type of time off, you have to be focused.

I'd rather just have a job I loved, and work 4-5 days a week but shorter shifts, or maybe just 4.
Not sure if I can ever go back to that 5 days in a row bs, unless I really loved what I was doing.

Today was no good to me, and tomorrows right around the corner.
What a bad mental and physical spot I'm in right now.
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