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Post by Admin on Nov 16, 2022 15:25:00 GMT
I've got to get dressed, head to the store, buy some cat food (for another person), then come back home, languish over how much time I've wasted, then get clobbered by the closet monster throughout the rest of the day.
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Post by Admin on Nov 30, 2022 12:23:48 GMT
 Why do some people who always ignored you doing the good times in their life, when prosperous, then want to burden you with BS stuff on their way down? As if want to take you down with them. They didn't want to take you up, but seem to have no problem dragging you down with burdening you with stuff you can't solve or chose not to. Here's the deal with me right now, my mental state is frail in that I have absolutely no one on this planet who cares whether I live or die, wake up or not. No one to hug me, nothing. I spent T day alone, as I will Xmas...as such, I need every once of mental energy for self, not for others who at least have relatives, or grown kids or whatever to help them. I have none of that, zero, so why do those who do have still chose to burden me? it's why I just don't answer they metaphorical door anymore, cause no one brings me anything good, no one cares about making my life easier, yet I'm still suppose to care about making other peoples lives easier, says who? |
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Post by Admin on Nov 30, 2022 12:26:13 GMT
All I have going on right now is a small localized am radio show, that's it, and it's not free, it's what keeps me sane right now and allows for me to express self on air and in a artful way.
I'm just not friends with anything that tries to take that away from me right now through distractions, mental or fiscally.
I'm walking a real thin line of sanity right now, or stability is a better word.
And if not going to help me grow, or for once fulfill my dreams or needs, than why even bother coming around.
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Post by Admin on Dec 14, 2022 13:18:41 GMT
I just feel like 'today' hates me I think 'today' hates me.
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Post by Admin on Dec 15, 2022 3:17:18 GMT
I bought like 120 dollars worth of lottery tickets today, lotto and lottery tickets, why not?
Off of past scratch off earning, again, why not?
My fiscal fortunes are not ever going to change, no matter how many hours i work, ect, what a path to nowhere, especially as you age.
And no one's going to change my fortune for me, again, you have to be liked and loved for people to want to invest in you fiscally, or someone rich person has to has to have a crush on you, and the older you get, the less likely that is to happen.
So basically, my only shot at getting rich anymore is through sheer luck, as in the lottery.
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Post by Admin on Jan 11, 2023 15:34:18 GMT
Not having the best time of it, as of late, not the worst either, I just feel emotionally detached from it all right now.
The only time I seem to have passion anymore is when I'm drinking or drunk, but when sober, nothing seems to interest me at the moment.
Or if it does, I no longer feel like fighting for it or taking risks for it anymore.
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It's Wednesday, I've been off for a good stint of time.
I think I need to make one more trip to the grocery store before returning to work tomorrow.
I went shopping the other day but can barely tell I bought anything, fridge and cabinets still look bare and empty on the inside.
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Post by Admin on Apr 5, 2023 20:27:51 GMT
I don't feel very uppity right now, and still have a show to wrap up.
This for sure hasn't been my best off time period.
Drinking beer just depresses me now.
I need to stop.
But then reality can be depressing as well, especially when going through it alone.
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Post by Admin on May 24, 2023 15:41:39 GMT
Well, I suppose I should get up and do something, it's my last of 4 days off in a row. I love having 4 days off every week, but you won't get rich, that's for sure. But the older you get, the more 'time', free time, becomes more like money. Cause whether have 5 million in the bank, or 1 dollar, when your time ends, it just ends. But ye, time to start moving around, I think I'll work off of the 'to do list' to get things rolling.  open.spotify.com/episode/058TIHwZbZHewGnLi6rs0A |
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Post by Admin on Jun 7, 2023 12:18:27 GMT
It's Wednesday  Is it Wednesday or Friday? Leave it to the www.thedizzysissy.com/ to create confusion. That aside, I do believe its Wednesday, and well, what shall I do today? I'm off, so it's my last day of freedom. I just need to keep my mind at peace, avoid negative people, situations, and I should be OK.
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Post by Admin on Jun 7, 2023 17:25:46 GMT
I cashed, or put into my checking account, a decent sized check today.
I could, if dumb, now put down much more on a used muscle car, and get payments lowered, but nah, not feeling it no more.
As usual, I was drunk when wanted that car so bad, but now that sober, nah.
And I was emotionally rebounding from a show I'm ending soon, I felt void on the inside and needed to fill that emptiness with a new mission, and that new mission was going to be that car...but nah, not feeling it right now.
Now's not the time to be held hostage to payments. When held hostage to payments you become a slave to the system.
I'll keep my money, for now.
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Post by Admin on Jun 14, 2023 10:28:20 GMT
It's hard to be graceful when living around worms  Grace under Fire, for sure. It's hard to be graceful or walk with grace when surrounded by a community of worms. From sunup to sundown, nothing but worms. At least that's how I feel, see, and observe at times.
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Post by Admin on Jun 14, 2023 14:46:02 GMT
It's Wednesday I sure hope I was off today, cause well, if not, I'm tardy. That aside, it's Wednesday, nothing new, I'm older than I was last week. About to take the trash out, and then what? I need a new plan in life, one that doesn't cost a lot of money. I hate bugs that bug you, I'm not sure I could survive in the outdoors with so many bugs flying and crawling around. Bugs that bug you are very annoying. Anyways, to see full video of gif above, you can watch the rest of it on YouTube Assuming bots and advertisers aren't the only one reading this. The lust for money makes people soulless, in my opinion. Anyways, it's wacky Wednesday...later and out.
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Post by Admin on Jun 22, 2023 2:49:44 GMT
Oh what a difference a week makes.
About to just lay back in bed, watch a sci-fi thriller 'The shadow puppet' or puppets, and just doze off, I suppose.
Not in the happiest mood right now, but I think it's more of a coming down from alohol type of a mood.
I worked out the last two mornings, but also I drank the last 2 days as well.
Sometimes, not sure what to be happy about anymore going forward.
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Post by Admin on Jul 20, 2023 2:53:38 GMT
What a lame brane boring Wednesday after work period.
Came home, cleaned floor, texted a few people, typed some stuff onto online forums, and now about time for bed again, what a lame brain life.
I do need another job, I mean if can't find fulfillment when not working, maybe I need a job where can find it while at work doing something I enjoy.
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Post by Admin on Jul 27, 2023 0:20:36 GMT
Today's a odd feeling day for me.
I drank yesterday evening and into the night, probably to much, but then had to work today.
I get back to my car, and passenger door was agar, and looked like stuff inside vehicle had been moved around.
Then get home, and I don't think anyone was in here, cause I have cameras, but got the same feeling.
Like when walked upstairs neighbor's door was cracked open slightly.
It's just been a odd feeling day for me.
Started off the day saying aloud to self 'god hates me'...over and over again, even while driving at work.
I think that beer really hit me in a odd way yesterday and into the morning.
And my joints now ache a bit.
just weird stuff, I really do need to stop drinking beer.
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