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Post by Admin on Oct 7, 2022 3:03:12 GMT
I need a change, a major change in my life, if whatever years I have left on this Earth is to have meaning
I just need a new path, a better one for 'self'...cause this current path is a lonely one, and one devoid of love, affection and a broader purpose.
What does that mean?
Usually, to create a new path for self, here's some major things one would have to do, in no particular order
1. Quit current job, just up quit, cause sometimes until you just up and quit or resign, you'll never be motivated to look for something better.
2. Moving, sometimes to make things better for self, you just have to up and move, as scary and impossible as that can seem, especially when alone, sometimes moving, moving to a totally different State, environment, community, can be like getting a second life.
3. And if in a bad relationship, Change can mean severing it, and moving on.
I'm not in a good or bad relationship, but 1 and 2 do apply to me.
I just need a change before I crack.
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Post by Admin on Oct 9, 2022 21:56:37 GMT
Not thrilled with my life circumstances right now, as such been a bit edgy lately
I'm not thrilled with my life circumstances right now, as such i've been a bit edgy lately, grouchy, and impatient.
I think it's because I'm getting older, I know this, but nothing is changing, and I know i can't keep living this poverty check by check type of life.
Because I'm basically one bad accident, illness, ect, away from nothing.
And when already alone, that's scary to think about.
Cause as you age your sense of invincsibility begins to wear off.
And I'm just not sure what to do anymore to change things around.
Amazing how many billions of dollars floating around on higher levels of life, yet none of it makes it down to people on my level, it all gets absorbed by people and agencies that are already wealthy before it gets down to my level.
And I'm not talking to welfare sh-t either, I'm talking forgiveness loans or grants, to help people fiscally bridge their dreams to reality.
Corporations take out, get loans, all the time, yet conservatives want to shame poor people for doing the same?
I mean if I can't be rich, than I at least need to be happy.
Just not sure what to do anymore.
I probably need love and romance in my life, I think that would change everything, but if it were that easy for me to find love and romance, marriage, I would of done it ages ago....and none of this here would exist.
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Post by Admin on Oct 10, 2022 8:56:34 GMT
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Post by Admin on Oct 14, 2022 2:32:20 GMT
All I know is I need a break from so called humanity, from life.
I just need an escape from society.
And this song kind of helps me with that start.
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Post by Admin on Oct 30, 2022 1:26:16 GMT
I still think it kind of odd and silly that a man would spend 44 billion dollars on a social media site, I mean I guess the need to bee seen, heard, every minute of the day is just that strong in people.
I'd of rather purchased or created my own news network, like Fox or CNN, for that kind of money though.
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Post by Admin on Oct 30, 2022 1:28:51 GMT
Most of social media is all rigged though, even now, in that unless someone has your specific profile link, the days of any ole Joe or Janes stuff getting out to everyone are long gone, it's all rigged, twitter just kind of got caught, but they all do it now.
Most are just playing in the sandbox by themselves, thinking their or our posts matter, when they really don't.
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Post by Admin on Nov 2, 2022 1:24:35 GMT
In a weird mood right now, in that even though I have spare time this evening, before slavic work tomorrow, and even have energy, I just don't feel like doing anything.
The mind is odd like that, sometimes the mind just needs rest, meaning sometimes you really don't need to concentrate on anything but nothing.
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Post by Admin on Nov 2, 2022 1:27:05 GMT
And also, one reason why I still look as youthful as I do, is cause I don't stress over worldly stuff.
I realize I'm going to die, regardless of what I stress over while alive, to including fighting with others, worrying about money, this or that, in the end I'm going to die, regardless.
So, I've learned to just not stress over much at all, and to avoid issues and or people that make you do so.
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Post by Admin on Nov 3, 2022 20:25:29 GMT
This DJ will make you happy, if you still have a soul
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Post by Admin on Nov 16, 2022 1:35:25 GMT
I feel a bit fiscally relieved right now Was paying 500 a month to air show on the radio, but nothing came of it, so basically just tossing money into the wind. So now, I'm 500 dollars richer per month now, can start saving again, and or use that money for something else more advantagios to me. But what I've learned is that I earn enough where can afford up to 500 a month in ect and whatever, and still get buy. So should I use this new saving to buy a decent used sports car?? Should I finally try to get the Dodge Challenger I've always wanted??  And would owning such a sports car make me any happier?? I don't know... Or should I take pilot lessons instead?? I don't know... Or should I enroll in some online college course?? I just don't know. All I know is I no longer will be paying 500 a month to be on air....which in the end didn't seem to matter much.
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Post by Admin on Dec 4, 2022 4:33:29 GMT
I got home today, and it's like a different spirit just came over me, one of 'do nothing'...not only that, but I keep thinking it's Friday, but I do believe it's Saturday.
I worked a different schedule this week, yes, today is Saturday do to the college games, and other radio programing I heard while at work.
Also, my mind feels tired, yet I'm not sleepy, I even laid down for a bit while watching some TV, but if drowsy would have dozed off, well I didn't and still feel pretty alert.
Not sure what's going on with the physiology of my body.
Maybe if I do a few things off of the 'to do list', I'll snap out of whatever odd physiological mood I'm in.
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Post by Admin on Dec 20, 2022 21:38:40 GMT
One thing I like about Ozzy, is he always lived while alive
Ozzy inspires me, not only cause we're born in the same month, but also because he always lived while alive.
Yes, he's still breathing, but you get my point.
The man loved life, was always curious about life, and lived while alive.
He was just lucky enough to always be surrounded by people who loved him.
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Post by Admin on Dec 22, 2022 12:19:47 GMT
This time of the year, you have to be careful not to allow other peoples dark moods to rub off on you or effect your own personal Xmas joy, just be happy, regardless
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Post by Admin on Dec 28, 2022 20:08:29 GMT
If missing Xmas already and again, than tune into this fun Xmas 'Gen X' radio episode that was broadcast on Xmas day www.spreaker.com/episode/52279456Who says Xmas has to be over just yet. Tune into this podcast and enjoy the crew of Gen X radio on Xmas day, just be prepared to laugh and be entertained.
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Post by Admin on Dec 30, 2022 12:18:56 GMT
I owe no one nothing or anything anymore...going forward, the only person I owe a thing to is myself.
I spent so many years of my younger self always trying to help an inspire others, always trying to encourage others to do this or that, or to collaborate with me to make things happen.
It was all a waste of time, and all I did was waste a lot of energy on the wrong people or persons.
Well now, going forward, what energy and focus and vision I have left is for me.
The only people I want in my life going forward are those who want to help me, for a change, to succeed and be happy.
If not, they're as dead to me, as I've obviously been to them over the years.
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