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Post by Admin on Jan 2, 2023 13:51:47 GMT
Jan 2nd 2023
Of all the years I've been alive, this new years feels the most hollow ever to me, or I should say I feel hollow on the inside.
Maybe it's age, maybe it's the environment finally getting to me, maybe it's the accumilation of many things, who knows.
I just know I feel hollow on the inside, and very indifferent to the world around me.
And there's just not much I feel I can do about it.
I even hate 'spell check', I mean I feel I should be given the freedom to mispell worlds if I so choose, without some computer trying to guess at what I'm going to write or should write.
I find that very hyper annoying and insulting, and intrusive.
Man annoys me, mass marketing annoys me, all to get a buck, but by doing so, these tech companies become ripe with Government agencies syphoning off information about the public, just like what happened at twitter.
Nothing is fair, and yes, the game is rigged.
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Post by Admin on Jan 4, 2023 1:34:16 GMT
I don't know what my plan is going forward this year.
I think this year, if I just live until next year, will be a plan and accomplishment.
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Post by Admin on Jan 24, 2023 15:55:01 GMT
Body Language - Queen
What a classic older Queen song that's so been forgotten about over the years.
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Post by Admin on Jan 27, 2023 4:37:00 GMT
I think my hair is now more naturally long than it's even been my whole life, kind of happened by mistake actually. That, and I don't take jobs anymore that make me have to cut my hair, I mean why should I? Cause when you lose your hair, you never get it back, so why shouldn't I enjoy my hair while I have it? Not only that, but uglier people need hair to cover up our flawed faces...D'oh!!  Poor poor me. |
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Post by Admin on Feb 13, 2023 19:50:34 GMT
I'm learning to be happy, or happier, you gotta just keep moving forward...and say 'yes', more than you say no.
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Post by Admin on Feb 16, 2023 3:55:15 GMT
It's Wednesday  It's Wednesday. I worked earlier today. The first night after work, after being off for 4 days, couldn't be or feel more bland. It's like night and day compared to the drunk fueled rants I had online and over the phone with various entities. Just harmless fun. I think I'm trying to still make up for all the years I didn't really have fun when I was younger. Either way, this night is a dud, and about time to already bed down so I can do it again tomorrow. But then I'm off on Friday, but then gotta work on Saturday...blah.
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Post by Admin on Feb 16, 2023 4:01:25 GMT
Oh, and free and open expression is pretty much done and over with now, online.
The powers that be, or the 'gatekeepers' just don't want to give that kind of 'power' to the average Joe and Jane anymore, so now, like days of old, before the internet, the gatekeepers are deciding who gets heard or not...in other words it's all rigged again.
They're reigning in everyone, and you can see it on twitter especially, where you can see where even once very popular accounts hardly get in views or impressions.
Greed, narcissism, but those behind the scenes, just couldn't leave well enough alone.
Man is forever trying to steer people to think as they want them to.
And now you have to many ideologs who control the information lines.
I'm not big enough to matter, but I hear from those who are, like whole shows being removed and canceled, not cause it's not what the people want to see, hear or watch, but rather it's always so goody tooshoos type behind the scenes, in the Gov, ect, who thinks they know best, when it comes to what information we the public should have access to.
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Post by Admin on Feb 16, 2023 4:02:22 GMT
Oh, and free and open expression is pretty much done and over with now, online. The powers that be, or the 'gatekeepers' just don't want to give that kind of 'power' to the average Joe and Jane anymore, so now, like days of old, before the internet, the gatekeepers are deciding who gets heard or not...in other words it's all rigged again. They're reigning in everyone, and you can see it on twitter especially, where you can see where even once very popular accounts hardly get in views or impressions. Greed, narcissism, but those behind the scenes, just couldn't leave well enough alone. Man is forever trying to steer people to think as they want them to. And now you have to many ideologs who control the information lines. I'm not big enough to matter, but I hear from those who are, like whole shows being removed and canceled, not cause it's not what the people want to see, hear or watch, but rather it's always so goody tooshoos type behind the scenes, in the Gov, ect, who thinks they know best, when it comes to what information we the public should have access to. Yep, they just want you to be quite, buy their products, and have no opinion...gross... |
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Post by Admin on Feb 22, 2023 9:06:57 GMT
Yes!!
Yes!!
What else can I say?
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Post by Admin on Mar 29, 2023 16:49:07 GMT
I joined Patreon, but have no idea what to do now that I joined.
You're suppose to be able to make money there by getting people to subscribe to your content, but heck, not sure what content of mine people would pay to see?
I'm not that exciting.
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Post by Admin on Apr 10, 2023 21:37:41 GMT
When reality begins to close in on you  When reality begins to close in on you, and yes, that's me. The older you get, the more reality begins to close in on you, and what that reality often has to tell you isn't always so good.
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Post by Admin on Apr 25, 2023 11:29:10 GMT
Cross roads  I feel, know, my life is at a crossroad right now, the tension inside of me is thick, the anxiety. Maybe by the end of the day I'll have a bit more closer as to what next or coming, whatever it is, I doubt it's initially going to be received as good to my inner self. Even I fell into the lull of thinking that things would just stay the same forever, it never does. And recieved a large envelope from FedEx yesterday, and that's really never good, it usually means a notice of some kind. I'll open it up in a bit. A notice, what kind of notice? 1. Bill collector notice? 2. Some other kind of legal notice? Well, it's not from the State or Government, cause they'd just deliver a summons if it were legal, usually corporations use FedEx, or maybe Atterney's. I don't know, I just need to open it so it'll be one less thing creating anxiety. And then I still got to try to sign lease, again, if I qualify still. One thing about being poor is no one can really sue you for anything cause you're poor and can barely keep up with monthly expenses. Rich people probably fear being sued, poor people not having enough income to cover self for the month or savings to fall back on should something go wrong. Anyways, it's Tuesday. Don Lemon got booted from CNN, and Tucker Carlson left Fox News, two staple hosts who many thought would be at perspective networks forever.
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Post by Admin on Apr 25, 2023 11:55:58 GMT
⬆️⬆️⬆️-Continued from above
Well, turns out that terrifying FedEx envelope wasn't the bad news I had feared, instead it was simply a document from 'Legal Zoom', with reciept in it from order I place last week.
Wow, funny how we can sure work ourselves up over nothing.
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Post by Admin on Apr 25, 2023 11:58:13 GMT
Now the next big hurdle is seeing if I still income qualify to stay at this place for another year, as in lease signing.
That's what has really had me down for the last month or so, is when I got notice about rent going up.
But today, do or die, I need to go take care of this, either they'll let me stay or they won't, and if won't, then time to move on with my life.
Tired of stressing.
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Post by Admin on Apr 25, 2023 20:24:25 GMT
Taxes  I think this year I'll fill out and send in my own tax form, I mean why should I pay another, to simply cut and paste my info onto a form, and then charge me $80-$100 bucks for that? Especially if my return is less than $200.oo, meaning what I get back. It's one thing if getting back 1000's of dollars, but if barely getting back 200, if that, than why should I pay a preparer half of my refund money? My taxes are simply, it's just me and one income, as such I don't need no fancy forms.
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