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Post by Admin on Jan 16, 2024 17:03:58 GMT
Lying is the biggest form of emotional violence against another
Why do people lie?
People lie in order to control others, they otherwise could not, if the truth about 'said particular situation' came to light...
And or at least the 'whole story'.
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Post by Admin on Jan 19, 2024 4:45:17 GMT
Home is so cozy Home, whatever that is to you, can be so cozy, cause you have everything set up just right, and is why the idea of moving to a lesser place can be so dern scary, especially as we, you, or I age. Moving is only fun when crazy wealthy, and can recreate your comfort zone, but when poor, you never know what you're moving into. I like things to be quiet, and I've been so lucky or blessed the last decade to live in a quiet place, most of the time. Oh well, maybe I'll win the lottery between now and when maybe have to move...ye right... 
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Post by Admin on Feb 12, 2024 16:50:35 GMT
It's like I'm at some kind of cross roads in my life...
I just don't want to do anything anymore, I've lost all motivation to do even the smallest of tasks, especially if those tasks cost money.
Like I need new tires for one of my vehicles, but really not in the mood to go pay, wait at shop, ect.
I've just lost all steam.
Everything just seems hopeless to me, as of now.
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Post by Admin on Feb 22, 2024 2:22:16 GMT
If I ever go to church again, I think I'll go to a gay/lesbian/whatever, type of church If I ever go back to church, I think I'll find a openly gay church to go to, why? Cause most people are gay, bi-sexual, lesbian, ect, anyways, but at least at a openly gay church, there's no whispering or shaming. If going to worship with sinners, than I'd rather worship with God honest type of sinners, not ones who pretend to be saints, yet do the devils biddings behind the scenes. Not only that, just there's so many tones of same sex attraction, not all same sex attraction leads to romance or the bedroom.
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Post by Admin on Mar 3, 2024 14:16:48 GMT
 Odd thing is, when I look at old adult stuff, couples having bi-racial sxx, orgies, you name it, feet fetish galore, and more, all sinful right? But odd thing is, is those people lived, lived their fleshly desires to the fullest, and now that older now, like me, I'm willing to bet they're all living more fulfilled lives than I am, have more love in their lives, have families, and still probably having plenty of sxx... Me, none of that... if I could go back in time, the heck with morality, I too would engage and have fun. |
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Post by Admin on Mar 19, 2024 23:10:18 GMT
Stay away from fools, and your life will be a lot easier.
Many B people are utter fools, sorry to say.
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Post by Admin on Mar 24, 2024 1:11:00 GMT
I have a old Halloween skeleton that I no longer want or need, I should, as a prank, just go lay it out next to the road, or next to the dumpster.
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Post by Admin on Mar 24, 2024 1:14:22 GMT
Continued from above.
I'd do a lot of things, if just had more energy and enthusiasm...I just don't right now, cause of stuff that's on my mind.
I haven't drank since like Wednesday?...that's always good, but not exactly in a happy mood until what I'm going through right now is resolved or finalized, then, then, I'll have reason to be optimistic, at least for a while.
I've been denied so much in this world, a family, friends, riches, sex, and more, that I hope 'god' or 'God', when sees I have one moment of prosperity, doesn't rip that from me as well.
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Post by Admin on Mar 24, 2024 4:15:16 GMT
When drinking, drunk, ect, and you think you may receive some money, funny how 'all is good', and you start promising to make life better for those around you, those who really don't deserve it or anything, but you're drunk, and all is good.
But then, later, when you sober up, you begin to realize the monies you may or may not be getting really isn't a whole lot, and has to also last you the rest of your short difficult life.
Well, that kind of happened with me...but now that sober, the seriousness of the situation is hitting me; and before I even think about helping anyone else, I've got to help myself first.
No one, other than my mother, has ever helped me out with anything, not even other siblings, at least not since very young. Most ignore me now.
I have no friends, and no family, to speak of.
Blood means nothing if no love and relationships behind that blood.
As such, whatever monies I get (If I get any at all), I'm prioritizing me own needs first, period. Cause no one else on this planet, family or not, ever sits around thinking 'Hmm, how can I help ____ if I suddenly get some money?'...
I mean no one! I could have died 6 years ago, and no one would of given a dmn.
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Anyways, I'm sober now, that's good and bad...mainly good though, for my health, but bad in the sense I tend to worry more about stuff when sober.
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Post by Admin on Mar 24, 2024 22:41:55 GMT
It's Sunday  It's Sunday, and this is the view I get to enjoy, at times, when go out onto the deck. I can't complain about the view, for sure, but because rent keeps going up, this will probably be my last full year here. Sad to leave, but the realities of greed sometimes force you to move on. ----------------------------- Anyways, it's Sunday, I haven't done a meaningful thing today other than workout (walked at park), and did a little grocery shopping, I mean very little, yet price still came to over 50 bucks.
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Post by Admin on Apr 5, 2024 1:31:19 GMT
You can always say no Just remember you can always say no.Sometimes we can promise things or build up another person's expectations that we're gonna do something that will benefit them, or try to make a salesperson happy by telling them we'll buy this or that, and to call back. But just remember, you always have the power to say no, cause in the end, the decision will effect you more so than anyone else. A deal that may seem good one day, could feel or seem bad the next day. Never be afraid to say no, if saying no will give you peace of mind.
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Post by Admin on Apr 5, 2024 2:18:10 GMT
You can always say noJust remember you can always say no.Sometimes we can promise things or build up another person's expectations that we're gonna do something that will benefit them, or try to make a salesperson happy by telling them we'll buy this or that, and to call back. But just remember, you always have the power to say no, cause in the end, the decision will effect you more so than anyone else. A deal that may seem good one day, could feel or seem bad the next day. Never be afraid to say no, if saying no will give you peace of mind.
It's a good feeling to later say no to something, that you were leaning 'yes' on during a different mood. |
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Post by Admin on Apr 10, 2024 20:58:21 GMT
My life is changing quickly, in ways I'm not use to.
For so many years, worked jobs that just had me on the road to obscurity, then about a month and a half ago, I just had enough, and knew I had to do something different.
So sold some property, and my plans were to then buy more property and then a RV and live on that land for free...but I got side trached, and now about to enroll in a short but expensive film/production/entertainment type of course.
I will meet many new people, make many new contacts, see many new things, ect, that have been absent from my daily routine for a decade.
Maybe there's better use of my money, but gosh dern, at my age, unless I find a passion, and do that passion, I'll just fizz away on alcohol, and god forbid, drugs, as in weed.
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I'm not used to anything I do actually working out good for me long term, usually I make decisions that seem right at the time, but end up being bad for me long term.
It's one thing to say you want to do something when drunk, it's another thing to sober up, and actually do it long term.
Anyways, I have a phone call from an important man, here in a few minutes, so let me prep for that.
(Film school creator, I think I'm making waves as of now)
(oops, forgot to send this after that call)
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Post by Admin on Apr 12, 2024 17:57:53 GMT
Sometimes I just got to get up, out and go, even if have nowhere in particular to go to.
Just sitting behind my computer all day begins to drive me nuts after a while, especially when the sun is out.
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Post by Admin on Apr 21, 2024 5:27:20 GMT
Not sure what to think of myself, or current path life is on, as of the moment.
Today, I participated in like a film shoot, something I've never done before.
It was all new, I was new, and it took a lot out of me.
I hope I'm cut out for this, cause I've staked a lot into hoping I am.
And in 6 months or less or so, I'll have a completed screenplay written, and ready to pitch to a producer.
So ye, I have a lot staked in all of this...will it pan out?
Who the hell knows...lol.
It's late and I'm zoned out.
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