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Sunday
Jun 12, 2022 11:51:08 GMT
Post by Admin on Jun 12, 2022 11:51:08 GMT
I think social media, over the years, has really harmed my ability to concentrate Between social media, and my past drinking, I think both have really harmed my ability to concentrate on anything for more than 5-15 minutes. People who make things happen concentrate on one thing for days at a time, weeks, months, even years at a time, not minutes. I think social media has been the biggest waste of my time over the past 6 years or so. After around 2016 the nature of social media just really begin to change, it become monetized, and way more political. I've wasted a ton of time on social media, in the past, thinking I was doing something when not doing a thing but wasting time, energy and talent. Forum boards were around before social media was and I still think forum boards are the best way to record your thoughts over time, cause you're in control. Forum boards, to me, are better even than photo sites, cause again you have control of what you post, how long it stays up and so forth, and it's always there, and I think can even download all your stuff into a file or ask the service to. forum boards are more like photo albums of your life, or better yet a library of your life and the times living through. |
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Sunday
Jun 12, 2022 17:27:38 GMT
Post by Admin on Jun 12, 2022 17:27:38 GMT
I'm bored out of my mind today, it's like I've just given up on everything, or trying to become anything.
Just seems it's all a scam and a sham.
Online stuff has been such a waste of my time, online stores, whatever, all online money making opportunities have proven futile to me, or maybe I just suck at it.
'Go out' you say?
Where and with whom?
I've already been everywhere and when working, my job takes me 'out there', so when off from work the last thing I feel like doing is more driving.
So I just sit, not motivated to do anything, cause everything I've tried my whole life always fails, or isn't true as advertised and in the end I get burned.
Seems you just have to be corrupt or love money and be willing to hurt others in order to really get ahead in this world.
And so if you're clean, and not willing to hurt or trample or exploit others to get ahead in life, seems you go nowhere, you just sit.
Not in all cases, but in many and the majority of cases.
If you're a nice person you're just benched.
And right now I feel like I'm on the bench of life.
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Sunday
Jun 12, 2022 17:29:20 GMT
Post by Admin on Jun 12, 2022 17:29:20 GMT
I don't even know what my purpose in life is anymore.
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Sunday
Jun 19, 2022 15:55:53 GMT
Post by Admin on Jun 19, 2022 15:55:53 GMT
Sunday  It's Sunday, and I'm bored out of my mind already. I just don't have anything 'pressing' in my life right now, no big projects, no romantic interests, nothing. Not sure what to do about it. If going out and making friends in this area so easy, I'd be out with them right now instead of writing this here. People just don't like me, I mean they like me while at work, but I guess can never imagine hanging out with me outside of work for various reasons. I look to good, am to stunning, and I guess they're afraid I'll steal their mate or partner by outshining them. I know that sound arrogant and concieted, but I think that's what it is, I intimidate folks cause I'm just that stunning in real life. Anyways, it's Sunday and I'm bored, time to create a 'to do list' to get me going in any ole direction.
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Sunday
Jul 4, 2022 1:33:14 GMT
Post by Admin on Jul 4, 2022 1:33:14 GMT
Sunday  Today has kicked my butt, and has rolled all over me in demeaning ways. I wish I could just surrender to bad luck.
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Sunday
Jul 17, 2022 22:35:17 GMT
Post by Admin on Jul 17, 2022 22:35:17 GMT
Weird day today, it's Sunday but feels more like Saturday to me.
Just in kind of a post work relaxed mode, that first day off is always like a transition day, unless have something else rigid to do, but when just off and alone, it can take a while to settle back into normal self.
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Sunday
Jul 17, 2022 22:36:33 GMT
Post by Admin on Jul 17, 2022 22:36:33 GMT
I kind of sorta miss my DVD collection right about now, and kind of sorta wish I didn't give all my dvds away to the goodwill, or actually I think I gave them away to the library instead..
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Sunday
Sept 5, 2022 0:57:55 GMT
Post by Admin on Sept 5, 2022 0:57:55 GMT
The only person who screwed my day up today was me.
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Sunday
Nov 27, 2022 14:11:30 GMT
Post by Admin on Nov 27, 2022 14:11:30 GMT
I feel very kind of flat today, on this Sunday
I feel emotionally flat today, on this Sunday, normally no big deal, but when also trying to produce a show with fun content, you need creative energy...and lot's of it.
It' easy to see how performers can get addicted to drugs, in that every day they have to get up and perform in front of live audience, and the audience expects them to always have same level of energy and enthusiasm...well no one can be high on life all the time.
So I can see how the pressure would mount for live performing artist to take stuff to keep them 'up'...
Luckly I don't do live performances, but do have a pre-recorded radio show I do, but you still need lots of creative energy to 'getter done'....if not, show will come off as flat.
And flat is how I feel today.
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Sunday
Feb 6, 2023 2:16:55 GMT
Post by Admin on Feb 6, 2023 2:16:55 GMT
Fate.
As talented as I am or was, why did 'fate' put me around losers who take positive energy and simply bury it?
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Sunday
Feb 6, 2023 3:31:02 GMT
Post by Admin on Feb 6, 2023 3:31:02 GMT
First days off are usually a disaster for me, as far as being productive and getting anything done.
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Sunday
Apr 10, 2023 3:57:54 GMT
Post by Admin on Apr 10, 2023 3:57:54 GMT
Vivarium movie reviewed on Paranormal Saturday  www.spreaker.com/episode/46710811 Yet another fun, rollercoaster episode of para Saturday is complete. Listen to podcast and or even now on YT.
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Sunday
May 1, 2023 3:38:33 GMT
Post by Admin on May 1, 2023 3:38:33 GMT
Vivarium movie reviewed on Paranormal Saturday www.spreaker.com/episode/46710811 Yet another fun, rollercoaster episode of para Saturday is complete. Listen to podcast and or even now on YT. Oddly enough, I'm watching this movie yet again, on Amazon. Certain movies just compel me to watch them over and over again. Drag me to Hell, was my go to scary movie for the longest. Then got all caught up in the 'Bad Ben' paranormal spoof movies, after the 1, 2, 3, the series got a bit goofy. Anyways, movies aside, not the best day for me, not that anything bad occurred, but nor did anything good. And I notice social media just depresses me even more now with the lack of interaction anymore and the constant sharing of violent videos that show people fighting or getting beat up. It's all animalistic. And YT rating is odd...if you upload a picture of feet, 'Age sensitive material', they say, yet if you upload someone getting their feet chopped off in a lawn mower, with blood splatting everywhere, that's OK, millions can view that, including minors. It makes no sense. ----------------------------------- Anyways, I'm currently 'dry', not drinking, so trying to deal with a sober reality. I need to not drink for a few weeks or longer cause just at a pivotal point, and need to have a clear mind so can set self on a better trajectory going forward....if that's even possible. |
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Sunday
Jun 12, 2023 0:58:10 GMT
Post by Admin on Jun 12, 2023 0:58:10 GMT
Get up off of your butt!
Get up off of your butt, and dance with me, us...
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Sunday
Jun 18, 2023 16:20:25 GMT
Post by Admin on Jun 18, 2023 16:20:25 GMT
It's Sunday May as well be in a mental institution, I think if stay in same place to long, that's what it becomes. I mean who's sane in this world?Are the women of the view, that tv show, are they sane? Or any other TV show, or talk show, I mean look how different peoples realities are from one another across this land, across this world. I don't think no one is sane, I just think your insanity becomes acceptable if you're wealthy or have power, or if happen to be very attractive/handsome and people like you. That aside, it's Sunday...what will the day do with me?
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