Monday

Monday

Today has been a total dud, got nothing done, and drank heavily last night, well not really, but to me it was, or felt like it was.

Probably cause I've stopped drinking daily, so my tolerance has dropped, I guess that's good.

Got nothing done today, stayed in bed till around noon, then after that cooked some chicken, watched some YT videos, and that's about it, as I recover.

Drinking is just more of a pain now than a joy.

Oh ye, and I vomited last night all over the floor next to computer screen.



Yes I vomited, right here, on that tile floor.
Thank goodness the floor is tile and not carpeted.

I could never live in a carpeted place ever again after having tile, and seeing all the dirt and grit that gets tracked in that you would not see if had a carpet.

Anyways, today has been a bust, woke up feeling demoralized, got drunk and called numbers last night and probably made a fool out of myself as usual.

If I could just give up and surrender to life I would, but not even that's easy, unless just go live on the streets, but then still need food.

Monday



It's Monday, and well, I've been here before, round and round we go.

The plans, then the drinking, then the crash...round and round we go.

Also, I started using google chrome again, but this site here doesn't come up on chrome..

Something about ranking system...well screw them then, I just may un rank google chrome from my browser.

And 'edge' is acting up...I don't know, maybe I'll give firefox a try..

Always something to interfere with the tiniest of joys you have in life.

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Also, some think you're always going to be here for them when they need you, they leave you, they go off and have fun with others, never thinking about your well being until they get bored, ect, and then decide to enter your life again, and expect you to be all cheery and happy to hear from them.

I don't know, not having the smoothest emotional day right now.

It's Monday.

I'm just off kilter today, I did it to myself though, by drinking yesterday, now I'm paying for it with a off kilter mood.

Monday



Not a very sexy day for me, that's for sure, quite a bland day actually, very bland.
And I'm running out of food very quickly.
Seems I go to store, spend 80 dollars, and the food is gone in no time.

If I didn't have a stomach to feed, no telling how rich I'd be by now.

I wonder how much money worth of food one stomach consumes over a lifetime?
(that would be a fun stat to look up)
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Anyways, again, a very emotionally bland day for me, when was preparing to do something very grand today, but then made the mistake of drinking beer yesterday evening and into the night, and of course that totally sapped me of everything today.
Amazing how alcohol can just totally rob you of all drive, not while drinking, but rather during the recovery period or what some would call the hang over period.

But as you age, so called 'hang overs' effect you differently, it's more of a downer mood thing than a physical feel sick thing.

I suppose a lot of things change as we age.

Oh well, what else can I get into on this dull boring Monday night.

To buy or not to buy?

Here's what I've learned throughout my life so far when it comes to spending.

Buy what you can while you can, cause when you're broke, you cannot.

I've learned it's better to have to much stuff, while broke, than to not have what you can't afford, and want it.

I hate ordinary people