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Post by Admin on Feb 6, 2023 4:14:26 GMT
Current mood  Current mood.
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Post by Admin on Feb 6, 2023 4:16:11 GMT
Current mood, conscious mood, is just odd right now.
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Post by Admin on Feb 16, 2023 4:30:23 GMT
Current before bed mood? physically I feel fine, but emotionally I feel a bit defeated, cause I can't upload stuff to a site I've used for years. Expression is everything, expression is life, and when can't properly express self, it can be depressing. Oh well, at least where I live a train didn't derail.  Yep, some people have bigger issues to deal with, than me being discouraged over not being able to load files up to a site. At least I'm not having to breathe in toxic cancer causing chemicals, not yet anyways, unless that plume of smoke drifts to my State. |
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Post by Admin on Apr 9, 2023 13:41:23 GMT
Current mood?
Bleak, or is it bleek?
Things can occur that just really jar your emotions, like losing stuff, your keys, wallet/purse and or phone, or all 3 at once.
But I always say, the hardest part about life isn't struggling, the hardest part is when you have to struggle alone, cause then the weight of it all just seems more intense when there's no one to tell you things will be OK.
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Post by Admin on Apr 9, 2023 13:46:07 GMT
Regardless, I'll do my best to stay focused, cause that's all we can do. Sometimes I feel everyone is assigned a personal devil or demon, or maybe many, to just follow you around your whole life finding ways to disrupt your flow.  Maybe figuring out ways to drive you insane, make you lose your mind, or turn to self destructive habits as a way of coping. Solution? Remember this, if you can't eat it, than you really don't need it. |
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Post by Admin on Apr 9, 2023 14:02:38 GMT
I just quit twitter, and I feel good about it, that place is a waste of time now, emotional time.
Let them mine someone else's data.
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Post by Admin on May 24, 2023 20:27:44 GMT
It's Wednesday and my mood is starting to drop, I can feel it. I have to work tomorrow, been off for 4 days, and getting that day before work blues feeling.
I mean no matter how bad things are when not working, I'll take a bad, no work day, any day over a work day.
That's what happens when you stop enjoying what you do.
And then you end up drinking the day, evening, before work to soothe your soul, or to numb it to the reality of the next day.
But usually when the next day does arrive, it's really not as bad as you imagined it would be.
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Post by Admin on May 24, 2023 20:30:17 GMT
I mean, healthwise, I'm doing OK, feeling decent, would be feeling better if didn't drink some beers yesterday, but here I am today, again, sitting here, and I want a few beers, again.
I know it makes me feel crummy later, but life is about 'the moment', and right now I just feel a bit sad.
If I didn't have to work tomorrow, and 2 days after that, I wouldn't even be thinking about drinking right now.
3 days of hell, is how I see it, so if I feel bad tomorrow, do to me drinking this evening, so what.
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Post by Admin on May 24, 2023 20:31:58 GMT
Is why I really do need a roommate or someone to move in with me, so that I'm not feeling so lonely all the time, thus less tempted to drink.
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Post by Admin on Jul 3, 2023 0:15:42 GMT
I don't want to say I'm in a bad mood, but rather a indifferent mood.
As in I just don't care about anything anymore.
I realize now that effort means sh-t, if not helped or elevated by others with means.
Talent means sh-t, if not helped and promoted by others with means.
Being brilliant means sh-t, if not helped or elevated by others with means.
I've seen the dynamics of society.
You can be rotten and succeed and even be loved, and or you can be near an angel in demenor, and yet fail at everything and have people talk about you behind the scenes.
In this world, it helps to be born around, group up with, has as your friends, those with grit, grit and vision.
I have no such types in my life, haven't for decades.
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Post by Admin on Jul 22, 2023 21:23:01 GMT
On the 'to do list', create a song, came up, but I'm so not in the mood to create a melody or song.
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Post by Admin on Jul 29, 2023 2:25:39 GMT
Oddly enough, my mood is better now, than it's been in a few days, or a string of days.
I worked all day, off now, home now, but I actually feel 'OK'.
I shouldn't of expressed that, now something bad will probably happen.
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Post by Admin on Sept 18, 2023 20:27:45 GMT
I feel like hell is coming for us all, no matter how much we prepare for it not to happen
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Post by Admin on Sept 30, 2023 3:11:51 GMT
Lately, I don't know, my mood, which is affected by reality, has been, I don't know 'off'?
My mood has been heavy? Taxed?
Things just aren't going the way I wanted them to, but only cause I'm tied to a utter fool.
And now, I must end that tie, if hope to get some pleasure out of life going forward.
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Post by Admin on Oct 1, 2023 5:42:56 GMT
Art relaxes  I need to start getting back into creating cool abstract art. Art relaxes, art helps pull you away from the madness going on all around us.
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