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Post by Admin on Oct 19, 2022 23:43:48 GMT
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Post by Admin on Oct 20, 2022 0:14:02 GMT
I'm really neglecting areas of my life right now, I'm to singlularily focused, which would be fine, if making money off of that which I'm focused on.
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Post by Admin on Oct 30, 2022 0:48:35 GMT
Death by alcohol is a long slow painful one
Death by alcohol is a long slow painful one.
When drink heavily, you first die in many other ways before it even noticeably begins to affect your health.
I just once again tossed all alcohol out of place and into the river, 3 cans of beer in the waterway, and 2 opened cans down the kitchen sink.
Alcohol is not my bodies friend anymore, if anything it's a python dressed up as a friend.
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Post by Admin on Oct 30, 2022 0:50:37 GMT
Continued from above
Not only that, but now, in edition to physical discomfort, alcohol messes with my mood in ways it just didnt, say a decade ago.
I just think as we age, everything effects us differently, so why wouldn't alcohol.
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Post by Admin on Oct 30, 2022 21:31:14 GMT
I have to teach myself how to be happy again, without being drunk
For a non-drinker, that may seem like a no brainer, but for those who drink, and are used to getting into 'mood' due to the drink or drinking, once can soon forget how to just feel happy, safe, secure and confident, without having to drink to get there.
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Post by Admin on Nov 7, 2022 20:11:14 GMT
When I don't drink, I feel better, younger, more emotionally balanced  When I don't drink, I feel better, younger, and all or most body or nerve aches begin to or just out right go away (depends on how long I stop drinking) But when I drink, my over all mood is crabbier, I'm over all less happy, and I just feel older. but when I stop drinking for 2 weeks or more, I really don't feel any age, I just feel alive. But also I do stretch and exercise, cause I know just not drinking alone isn't enough to put you in decent or better than decent health. People drink for different reasons, me, I usually drink to not feel lonely when home alone. I haven't drank socially in years. I use to go out and drink though, and it was fun, I guess, I do sorta miss those times. I miss having a social life period. Now, all my neighbors may as well be from another planet, not sure why leasing office always plants people next to me that are so culturally different than I.
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Post by Admin on Nov 21, 2022 13:17:21 GMT
Sobriety is taking me for a loop right now. When drunk, it's simple, you feel great when drunk, you feel terrible when coming down, and sleeping the rest of the time. When sober, there is nothing to take you away from the vast array of emotions, feelings, and reactions you normally have, or your moods. Right now, I don't even have the will to get up from bed, I don't feel bad or anything, it's just like I've given up on this notion that I'll ever matter...and worse, I seem not to care that I don't matter to others anymore.  |
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Post by Admin on Nov 22, 2022 11:12:58 GMT
I wish there was a breathalizer for the phone, in otherwards I wish there was a device that if drunk, could not make a phone call, cause to me, at times, you or one, can cause just as much damage making a phone call while drunk as you can driving while drunk.  |
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Post by Admin on Jan 2, 2023 4:54:00 GMT
It would be nice if I could stop drinking beer in the year 2023.
I doubt I will, but would be a nice gift to self if I could.
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Post by Admin on Jan 14, 2023 1:52:06 GMT
If ever I felt like drinking, it would be on this cold, dark, wintery night after work, but nah, I chose tea instead.
I have to work one more day tomorrow, then off for a bit, so will toughen it out and settle for tea, and hopefully tomorrow as well, cause I don't need to be drinking anymore.
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Post by Admin on Jan 24, 2023 12:59:32 GMT
Today will be the first full day of my 'cleanse'.
No booze, and no junk food, which I've allowed to slip back into my life.
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Post by Admin on Jan 27, 2023 4:04:37 GMT
 If I could just stop drinking, I'd be in stellar health/shape, for my age, but drinking seems to continue to be a vice for me, driven on by spouts of loneliness I suppose.
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Post by Admin on Jan 30, 2023 21:22:11 GMT
Sometimes happiness is something that has to be relearned  I need to learn how to be happy again, I want to be happy again, and to get there, the first step is for me to stop drinking.
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Post by Admin on Feb 5, 2023 6:53:00 GMT
Not much to write about.
I worked earlier today, off for the next 3 days, and starting my 'dry' period, meaning no alcohol.
And yes, this time I mean it.
I've got no reason to drink anymore, nothing to celebrate, no one to impress.
All drinking is doing is slowly wrecking my good health.
I'm as healthy as I am only cause I do eat healthy and workout still.
And because when I do drink, as of the last year or so, it's basically just beer.
So ye, no drinking for a while, let's see how it effects my outlook and mood.
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Post by Admin on Feb 5, 2023 6:55:25 GMT
When I stop drinking, the first thing I usually notice, well, maybe not first, but one of the side effects is that I start losing weight, and I just start looking better and younger....which makes me feel happier on the inside.
More energy and better mood is the first thing I always notice, then the weight loss is second.
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